Tear Stained

Chapter 1

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   So here I am in my bed crying. It's cerently 3:34 am. In another 3 hours I have to get up and make breakfast so I want to get this out now and makes sure the others dont see. Yes they may see me as the 'Happy Pappy Patton' but thats not what I feel like on the inside. Deep down I'm sad, but I put on a happy face for them, even though it's hard.

   I've had Deceit visit me a few times and ask why i've been lying. I always forget that he can tell when one of us lies with out even being in the same room. I told him that I didnt want the others to be upset because of me. He was fine with it and nodded but said something like, that I should hide this from them. I know I shouldnt but I feel that I have to.

(6:25 am)

   Im about to get ready to start breakfast. My face isn't red anymore so thats good. I got up and put my normal clothes onb but put my cardigan on instead of around my neck. I've recently been feeling bad about the way I look. I mean look at them, Roman is so fit from all his battles and training, Logan is perfect due to a strict health diet, and Virgil is so thin. I'm over here becoming fat from all the sweets. I've never relized this before. I'm still in the average weight but I just look so fat.

   After I put my clothes on I went downstairs to start the meals. Everyone eats diffrent things, that's why I start so early. I started on Roman's first since it would be the longest, but take up the least amount of space. He normally has a ham and cheese omelet. Then I do Logan's. He has toast with crofters. Next I do Virgil's. He just has a bowl of cereal. I asked if dark sides wanted me to make them breakfast too but they said that they would do it.

    I did make anything for me. I am going to start skipping. I know it's not good, but I want to loose the weight. Maby then I'll look good.

   As I finnish, I call them all down. A few minutes later they all are surrounding the table in their seats. I went around setting down all the food infront of them. Then started to head to the kitchen to clean the dishes I used and wait for them to get done with theirs aswell.

   "Patton, why are you not eating. You shouldnt skip the most important meal of the day." Logan said before I got a chance to leave.

   "Oh don't worry Lo, I'm going to eat while im doing the dishes." I lied. I don't want him to know I wasn't going to eat.

   He looked like he wanted to say more, but didnt say anything. So I head to do the dishes.

This is my first book i've published so it won't be the best.
I'll update when I can. I tend to be busy. Oh and my grammar is kinda bad.