Marianna's secret

Secretly

It's getting harder and harder to keep my secret about me and Matt being back together especially to mom and momma I hate lying to them. Matt says it's not lying If you just don't tell them but what am I going to do if they ask I can't lie to them.  And I'm the one who doesn't want anyone to know we're together because I told momma I'd focus on myself and school after the whole Nick thing. I mean he could have killed me he brought a gun to school and then hid in my house and approached me in my room with the gun. I don't know what came over me but I comforted him until mom came to rescue me. If you didn't already know my mom seff is a cop she's really awesome.
   Anyway keeping secrets is the last thing I wanted to do but I can't stop my feelings about Matt he's the only thing that's made me feel safe since everything with Nick happened. I've been pretty freaked out about the whole thing.
       Me and Matt have been back together for over two months and I'm still scared to tell anyone. Feels like Everytime I'm about to tell someone I take three steps backwards. Idk maybe me and Matt are better when nobody is there getting between us. Just as I'm thinking about him he texts me he always seems to do that.

We always would seek out at night because it's a less likely chance that we get caught. We go to the beach most of the time but sometimes we go to his dad's because he's never there. And Ik what your thinking and yes I'm not a virgin anymore.. nobody knows exept of course me and Matt. It happened about 3 weeks ago and we have done it two times since than. Mom's would kill me if they found out and Jesus he'd freek out. Calli would probably be the only cool one
We spent the whole night out and he brought me home at about 3:00am... I snuck back in like I have for the past two months and I Went to sleep. Right after texting him goodnight.

Sorry for spelling mistakes and I'll add a new chapter tomorrow let me know what you think of it so far.