Runaways

Where do i start?!

~ My Speech ~
"Hello everyone, i really don't know how to start
The one question i have right now, is where do I start?! Everyone has come up with some great speeches saying how much they will love and miss my brother how of an impact he has made on them but I want mine to be different i knew him so well like the back of my hand, he was MY twin, MY built in Best friend to be honest with you the last three years we hardly got along but i was still hanging onto the memories we had when we were little like this one time this guy he was an idiot he was called me fat i didnt know Tom was behind me and he turned around and punched him in the nose and broke it, i took the blame for him though.... I remember the nights we stayed up the things we said, i want to say right now Tom made an impact of my life like he did on everyone else's but for each person he made a different impact it wasnt all the same things all the same memories Tom he made you feel like you were this number one person on earth so that always left me wondering was really his number one person? Was I really his rock....? I want to tell you all this now before you all get mad at me for leaving him alone at his time of need, i didnt know this Tom didnt reach out and when he did it wasn't for this sort of thing it was more like maths homework Tom always acted like he was fine like he was the man i know I know I should of asked him more but what more can I do? Everyone was expecting to know he was feeling this cause i was his twin and i went through this but that's we're everyone is wrong. Tom he wasnt as close with me anymore as he used to be, he was fighting different demons, he was fighting day to day demons while he had people on his side, i was fighting demons with no one on my side which shows something, im in madly love with this 80's Show called Family Ties and one of the main things i always remember is Alex speech and this is the thing that stuck out ' I understand now, When people say that people are Hell but really there half right because people are heaven too' not all people are your hell, Tom just didnt know that and if Tom was here i would tell him all this i would let him know he was my big brother, i want you to think for a moment imagine losing your best friend she or He killed himself and somehow people always blame you when they knew the whole story than times that by 25 that's not even close to how I feel. Tom told me this had to be short but i don't do short things, so Tom im sorry i really am i wish I could come back and make you feel better i wish we were closer Tom i love you thank you for being the best big brother i know I wasnt the best little sister im sorry i bolted im sorry i took your best friend im sorry you should of come Tom im thankful that you could stick up for me in my time of need i just wish you could of seen these people here today that could of helped you we would of listen
So Tom Bell rest in peace i wish that it meant return if possible but i know its not i can't believe im saying this but here it goes im letting you go now fly high big brother i love you" tears were streaming down my face i stepped down looking at my brother lying there and Suddenly my world fell apart

~ Luke's Speech ~
"Hey everyone im Luke im toms best friend not was i will always be
I just want to start by saying i miss him too, i will always miss him he was a good man a god friend everyone had their own view of Tom and it usually was a good one
Tom im going to keep your promises okay those ones we made in the middle of the night when we could only hear the clicking of Jess's laptop and the crickets outside those promises that keep us sane im not going to blurt them out here because your flying high but i will let them know im keeping it, I really didnt want to come up here because i knew it would mean i would have to let you go but I know that's how im going to get over this whole thing so sudden but Tom i don't want to see a world with out you i really don't and man i wish I was Isaac from the fault in our stars because he never had see a world without his best friend and i don't want to see a world with out you so thank you for giving me a life time in your life time i wish I could of been their longer i love you man" i stepped down crying and i was losing control i walked over to my mum before hiding myself in her arms and bursting into tears

~ Mrs Bennett's speech ~
"This is hard for me i lost my baby boy, this is hard for anyone who was close to Tom, we lost a part of us the other night i just can't believe it happened I've stayed up the past three nights after hearing this news listening to my baby girl cry her eyes out untill she fell asleep, her boyfriend crying himself to sleep over his best friend, and all that time i was thinking what could I have done better? What could of I've done to be a better mother and when you wake up you wake up and for a Split second you think your baby child's alive and you go to tell them something and you remember and its like getting the call all over again and its painful i use to watch people on the T.V losing their kids and i use to think how could you cope?!! But you do day to day and its hard really hard its so hard that's it's scary I can't even say goodbye because im afraid i will forget you but you can't forget your baby boy, Tommy i love you i really do please fly high" im surprised i finished it suddenly i fall to the ground crying remembering my baby boy has left us all

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GUYS THIS WAS HARD TO WRITE I JUST UPDATED SO IM ALL FANCY ON WATTPAD NOW :-)
THIS WAS SO SAD I CRIED ALOT ITS GONNA BE AGES FOR WHEN I UPDATE CAUSE I HAVENT STARTED YET BUT REMEMBER YOUR ALL BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE YOU ALL XXXX
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