A Better Place - The Hobbit Fanfiction

Eleventh Entry - Generosity

It was Balin who was the first to ask, as I backed away to a point where I could see all of them, whether or not I could speak, to which I nodded. He frowned at me. “Well then, lass, why don’t you?”

My eyes flicked from my left to my right, at the elves standing over my shoulders, then put my fingers together before me, and raised them over my head like a crown.

The dwarves’ faces darkened with anger and I quickly lifted my hands before myself to stop the shouts they were intending to throw at my guards. Looking over my shoulder I asked Tauriel hopefully, “May I sing?”

She looked over me at Legolas, who crossed his arms. “You may.”

Conveying myself with songs wasn’t as easy as simply finding one I liked. The tone and the words had to fit, but sometimes all I needed was a single line. But Balin was in the middle, so I looked carefully at him, shut my eyes, and trusted that he would understand.

“You are my sweetest downfall

I loved you first

I loved you first….”

I opened my eyes only when the lyrics matched what I was trying to tell him. The elves were growing on me, and I did genuinely like some of them, but that didn’t make my love for these gracious dwarves any less. They had to understand that.

“Chances are when said and done

Who’ll be the lucky ones who make it all the way?

Though you say I could be your answer

Nothing lasts forever no matter how it feels today

Chances are we’ll find a new equation

Chances roll away from me

Chances are all they hope to be

Don’t get me wrong I’d never say never

Cause though love can change the weather

No act of God can pull me away from you”

I wished them to understand that I loved them, that my chances were different from theirs, and that I wished them well no matter what happened to us.

“All I waited for

Was a chance to make you understand

And tell you these forgotten truths you never thought were real

And if the world should turn its back, you know that I’m still here

Time won’t ever steal my soul

We’re not broken, so please come home

Morning comes, and life moves on

And when it changed, you didn’t know where you belong

And I’ll still catch you when you fall through a past that steals your sleep

And scroll these words upon your wall remind you to believe.”

I believed in them, and I was doing all right, and even if I didn’t get to spend much more time with them I would still be thinking about them when I passed.

“Hey brother! There’s an endless road to rediscover

Hey sister! Know the water’s sweet but blood is thicker