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S5 E1 - Girl Meets The Forgiveness Project Part 2 (Coming Out)

Maya's POV

"How are you?"
"We can skip the superficial talk and get to the point, you know? I gotta go to work"
"Sure, of course. Your teacher, Cory-"
"Mr. Matthews for you"
"Mr. Matthews, well, he talked to Shawn about how you broke in tears at the hospital when Katy was giving birth"
"Yeah, well, I was emotional"
"He also told him the reason why you were crying. So Shawn reached out to me to help him solve the situation"
"I don't know what you're talking about. There's no situation"
"Oh, so you're telling me that you don't think it's your fault I left?" I sigh
"When I was growing up I hated myself. I thought that I was broken. That no one could or ever would love me. It's the only way a child can grow up and their father abandons them" he shakes his head in denial
"Maya..."
"All I ever wanted to know was why? What was so wrong in me, that you would leave?"
"You know you're not the reason why I left" I feel my eyes getting watery
"No, see. I understand. I was a charge. I was this mistake that you had to get rid off, wasn't I?"
"No, Maya. You weren't a mistake"
"Really? 'Cause it's pretty clear that you weren't ready for me. It's clear that I wasn't planned. I bet that if I wasn't born then you and mom would've stayed together longer"
"You don't know that. You can't know that. Maybe I still would've left. Maybe we would've broken up. Maybe we would've stayed on good terms or maybe not. We don't know that" there's a minute of silence between us.
"It's not your fault I left"
"I know!"
"No, you don't. You still haven't forgiven yourself"
"You're wrong! It's you I haven't forgiven yet!" I say defensively
"But you know what? It ain't like I'm still five years old, you know? It's not like I'll be sitting up every night asking mom: 'When's daddy coming home?' you know? I don't need you. You weren't there to teach me how to hold a pencil and draw but I got pretty good at it. I got through my first date without you. I learned how to ride a bike, I learned how to take the subway, I learned how to stand up for myself  without you. I had eleven great birthdays without and you didn't even send me a damn card! The fuck is wrong with you?!"
"Maya-"
"I didn't need you then and I don't need you know"
"Please, I-I..."
"No, you know what? I'm gonna finish High School without you. I'm gonna get through college without you. I'm gonna get a great job without you. I'm gonna marry a loving husband and have a whole bunch of kids. I'm gonna be a better parent than you ever were to me! And I sure as hell won't need you for that! You know why?! Because there ain't a damn thing you could ever teach me about how to love my kids!" at this point I'm full on crying.
"Why don't you love me?" I ask in a whisper. He stands up and hugs me.
"I do love you, Maya. I do. I regret leaving you, trust me. I'm glad you grew up and turned into this strong and independent woman. I don't want you to forgive me, I understand your rage, I really do. But I want you to understand that this isn't your fault. I want you to forgive yourself? Okay?"
"I-I don't know how to that" I say in between sobs
"We'll help you" I hear Shawn say and I pull away from the hug to turn around
"How?"
"Your mom have been thinking about professional help if that's okay. All I know is that I would've appreciated this kind of help" I nod
"Yeah, I think you're right"
"You're okay with that babygirl?"
"Yes, mom. I wanna feel better about myself"
"And I would like to stick around a little bit more. I wanna be there for you if that's okay"
"It's fine with me. But don't even think that things will get back to normal as if nothing happened"
"Of course I won't. I promise. Maya?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you wanna catch up a little?" I wipe away my tears as I shrug
"I guess I can talk for a while"
"See you at home, kiddo?"
"Yeah, absolutely"
"Okay then" he kisses my head
"See you later Bridget" I kiss my baby sister's nose
"And don't even think I forgot about you, Chet" I kiss him too before mom and dad leave.
"I'm gonna grab a snack, you want anything?"
"No, thank you. I'm good" I nod and walk inside
"How'd it go?"
"Are you okay?"
"Did he say anything that made you feel bad? If he did then I-"
"Relax Josh, it's fine. We're still talking. I just came here to grab a snack. Thank you for worrying though" I kiss his cheek and grab a donut
"Are you okay?" Elliot asks and I nod
"Yeah, it's going better than I thought"
"Talk to you later on the bay window, Peaches?" I nod
"Yeah, I'd love that"
"Just talk to us if you ever need to" Farkle says
"Yeah, we'll be there" his other half adds
"Supporting you"
"And cheering for you" Missy completes Zay's sentence
"Thank you, guys. I really appreciate that" I head out and sit again on the table
"So, how's the other family?"
"Well, Emma just started first grade and John third grade. What about you?"
"Just stared junior year. I captain of the cheer team for the second year and member of the Art Club. Like I mentioned before, I work here"
"Wow, you really have your life put together" I laugh sarcastically. If he only knew all the things that I'm feeling right now.
"What about your boyfriend"
"Oh, well, we broke up"
"Why?"
"He left" his smile falls
"Oh, that's sad to hear"
"Yeah, but I'm fine though"
"Well, any other boys?" I nod
"Two, actually. It's complicated"
"Mhm" he stands up and knocks on the window and I see a smiling Elliot
"Is he one of them?"
"Yeah, Elliot"
"Okay..." he knocks again. Revealing Josh instead
"That's the other one?"
"Josh"
"They look very similar"
"That's because they're related. Josh is Elliot's uncle"
"Seems like you're really attracted to that family" I nod
"That's because they're all amazing. From Mr. Matthews to Riley. Every single member of that family is full of love to give"

*Hours later, at the bay window*

"So, you forgave him?" I shake my head
"No, Riles. Still not ready"
"You're giving him a second chance?"
"Not really. I don't see it as giving him a second chance. He's free to stick around just as he's free to leave again. The choice is up to him"
"You've really come a long way" I smile
"Thanks. Means a lot coming from you" I notice she starts playing with her finger, sign that she's nervous
"You know. While you were talking to Kermit I came back home and came out to mom and dad"
"You did?" she nods
"Yeah"
"Well, how'd it go?"
"Pretty well actually. They were like 'Okay, cool'" I smile warmly at her
"I wish I was there"
"Yeah. But I wanted to do this by myself"
"I'm really proud of you Riley"
"Thanks. Means a lot coming from you" I raise my hand
"Thunder"
"Lightning"
"Forever" we say together before hugging.