Strands of Time

Class 15:Emotionally Unavailable

Yeah, we could have so much fun

If we never open up.

'Cause when you do

I don't know what to do

Don't know what to say

To make that feeling go away.

Yeah, you leave me scrambling for words,

Feeling fake.

I got nothing to give.

I don't know what you need.

It's empty inside of me.

An empty that's ugly.

So, what do you want from me?

What does loving you mean?

I can love you but the meaning isn't the one you know.

I don't know that love.

You can't give what you never had.

You can't fake what you never tasted.

So baby, when I say, "I love you,"

I don't know what I mean.

I can open up but there's nothing inside.

I can hold you in my arms but my arms are cold

Even though I feel warm in yours.

I like how my mind isn't churning when I'm with you.

I like lying on your chest, feeling safe, falling asleep to your heartbeat-

I like being able to be childish at times

And let someone else do the thinking for once.

Yes, I like you, I like being with you and

I can share your bed, share your dreams, share your life,

Share your fears but I can't share your tears.

I can't help if you don't know what will help.

Love scares me because it asks for things I don't know

Remember that time you accused me of not sharing and expressing-

Even though I said expressing will make you feel better?

Yeah, I know I'm a hypocrite.

But, I've been on my own for so long that I

Don't know how to share my burdens.

Don't know how to trust anyone with my heart,

Trust someone other than myself to help me.

So baby, I can smile, I can laugh, we can joke around-

And I can be true to you but know this,

In my head and in my heart I have a picture of me that-

I've been carving for years and I will fight against-

Any love that makes me feel ugly.

So help me.

'Cause I don't think two broken people can make a whole.