Make Him Move On In 50 Days [#Wattys2017 Winner]

Chapter 20

Chapter 20
Doubt

"Brendt..." I tried to call his attention.

Hindi na napigilan ang pagdaloy ng sakit sa aking boses na tila nanghihina habang nakatingin sa kaniya na ngayo'y titig na titig pa rin sa imbitasyon na hawak-hawak.

I can't help but to wonder... Why is he still this affected?

Two years have passed but his heart is still with those memories he kept for the five years he was with Sandra and her daughter.

I don't want to doubt but his actions are giving me a reason to. If he's fully moved on; If he has already forgotten everything, he wouldn't act like he is still affected.

"Brendt." Muli kong pagsubok na pumasok sa mundo kung saan siya nakakulong ngayon at hinawakan ang kaniyang kamay.

Ramdam ko ang pagkagulat niya nang dahil sa aking paghawak na mukhang nagpabalik sa kaniya sa wisyo.

He casually placed the invitation above the center table before he smiled when he turned to look at me but I can feel thousands of uncertain emotions behind the smile he's faking.

"Let's go to the kitchen. You can watch me cook." Agad niyang pag-iiba ng topic. "I'll cook your favorite. Wait. I'll just check if I still have enough ingredients for it."

Nagmamadali siyang umalis upang tumungo sa kusina. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang titignan niya. Sa pagkakaalam ko ay hindi niya naman alam ang paborito ko.

Marami pa kaming hindi alam tungkol sa isa't isa. Wala pang halos tatlong buwan kaming magkakilala ngunit magpapakasal na kami. Tama ba ang padalos-dalos na desisyon na ginagawa namin?

It is right to ensure my life to him whom I've just met two months ago?

Well, it was Dad who decided that we should already get married. Wala naman ito parehas sa plano naming dalawa. Though I really want to spend the rest of my life with him. There's no doubt to my feelings. But his feelings are shaky. What if he was just caught up in the moment that's why he agreed with my Dad decided?

Should I just cancel our engagement and just have a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship with him?

Napahinga naman ako ng malalim at saka sumulyap sa invitation na nilapag niya sa center table. Kinuha ko ito at binasa ng kabuuan ang mga nakasulat dito.

The wedding will be held on October 28 at Sofitel, Seawall Garden.

Cassandra must be so lucky to have someone like Sean who's willing to marry her again for the second time.

Pagkatapos ko itong basahin ay agad ko itong nilapag sa center table kung paano ito iniwan ni Brendt bago tumungo sa kusina.

I can see that he's really focused with preparing everything that he needs before he started cooking.

Umupo nalang ako sa bar stool kung saan mas tanaw ko ang bawat galaw niya habang nagluluto.

Pumalumbaba ako at tinitigan siya nang mapakunot ang aking noo nang maalalang paborito ko raw ang kaniyang lulutuin ngunit wala naman akong nakikitang kasangkapan doon ng paborito kong pagkain.

"Brendt, hindi mo kailangan niyan." Pagpigil ko sa kaniya nang sinimulan niyang batehin ang itlog sa isang maliit na mangkok.

Napatigil naman siya sa ginagawa at saka nakakunot-noong lumingon sa akin.