I sighed sadly at the thought.
《A couple years ago she found a new job that payed her a lot more than the previous one and she started going out and have fun almost every night and most of weekends. She likes her life outside so much, that every time she comes back home and sees me, she thinks about the fact that she has to pay for my education and for my food, that she has to bare having me in the same house》 I continued 《I was born because my parents weren't careful enough. She never wanted to have kids, and she likes to tell me that I'm not wanted every day. She yells at me all the time. She tells me I'm a disappointment, that I do nothing to repay for the things she does for me. She forces me to study and gets angry if I don't get an A+. Most of the times she doesn't even want to see me and she forces me to leave the house》
《Do you remember the night before you were accused of breaking the school's tv?》 I asked Hongjoong, and he nodded 《I was at school because I was looking for a place where I could sleep. That night, in fact, I sleep in the gym》
《That's what happened yesterday night too》 I said to Seonghwa 《That's why I was wandering around in the streets, without a jacket nor a phone. She kicked me out like I'm no one》
《She can't do that》 said Mingi 《You could get hurt》
《Yeah, well, she doesn't care》 I replied 《Actually, I'm sure she hopes every time that I don't come back》
《It's not legal, you should tell someone》 said Wooyoung
《It's not that simple》
《Is your mom the reason why you avoided us for the past days?》 asked Jongho
《No》 I said 《I was avoiding you because I felt guilty. I feel like I'm just using you to unwind and take a break from my life. I can see that my sadness effects you too, and I don't want to be a burden to you, or change your mood》
《You're not a burden》 said Seonghwa 《You know the stories people tell about us, so you must also know that we are never friendly with anybody. If we are spending time with you, it's because we really want to》
《We enjoy your company》 said Yunho
《You're actually a really interesting person》 added Mingi 《And you're also fun to hang out with》
I smiled sadly, and a tear fell down my eye. San got up from his seat and hugged me tight.
《We really care about you》 he said
I hugged him back, sobbing in his shoulder.
《From now on, if something happens you have to tell us》 said Hongjoong 《If you are sad we will cheer you up, if your mom kicks you out we will give you shelter, if you need help studying we can study with you》
《We're all bad students》 intervened Jongho
《We can still try!》 replied Hongjoong, exasperated because of his younger friend's remark
《Thank you》 I said, slowly calming down
San hugged me once more then let me go.
《Where are you staying now?》 asked Yeosang
《She's staying at my house》 replied Seonghwa
《Do you need anything?》 asked Wooyoung 《Food? Clothes? Money?》
《I'll probably need some clothes, but I'll try to go back home tomorrow, at least to see if I can take something from my room》 I replied
《In case you won't be able to, just tell me》 said Wooyoung 《We can always go shopping》
