Feelings

5

Every single time when I come downstairs my twin brother says to me: "Why are you never downstairs and always in you room?" Or he is making fun of me because I sit most of the time in my room.

He is kinda right about that, I spend a lot of time in my room. But whenever I come downstairs, he doesn't see me because 1) He is in his room, sleeping, 2) He is playing on the Playstation, 3) He is watching Youtube or 4) He is playing soccer outside.

It really annoys me that he is judging me like that, because I have really good reasons to stay in my room. Seriously. I'm not kidding this time. I am just hiding for people, okay.

I don't want to socialize that much. I really don't like people tbh. Okay, not all people, but you get it.

People are judging you all the time. Like always. It never ends. There is just one way to avoid it and that is hiding. Or ignoring, but hiding is a better option.

Another thing my twin thinks about me, is that when I hide in my room, I am always on my phone. It's not true dude. Okay, I am a little addicted to my phone, but that's another story.

I do useful things. Well, I don't know if it is really useful, but it is something different than spending time on my phone. I draw, I paint, sometimes I read. That's just a way of spending my time.

I also clean my room. I hate it when my room gets messy, plus when I clean my room, I clean a bit of my thoughts. It is more organized and that is very very nice.

Sometimes I go for a run. My motivation is gone atm, so I don't do it very often. In France I did it thrice a week. To avoid people (that was pretty expected). I want to get fit and have a condition before school starts. So I need to go for more runs. I'll go tomorrow after breakfast.

While writing this, so much things came up to my mind to write about. I love it. It helps me to write my own thoughts and feelings and share it with others. Okay bye for now, I gotta get some sleep hahah.