ever since the party

part 17- "this is not goodbye."

THREE WEEKS LATER

JOHNNYS POV

once again i was being ignored. she won't reply to my texts. doesn't sit with me at lunch. she won't even spare me and glance in the halls.

we went from everything being perfect, to so far from it.

i don't know what i did, but i'm determined to find out.

i sat in my room devising another text i knew she wouldn't reply to.

john:
hey baby. i don't know what's been going on lately with us and i don't know what i did wrong but i need you. i need us. please just call me.
seen 9:23 pm

when the my letter word "seen" showed up on my screen his heart shattered for the hundredth time. what did i do? why was the love of my life shunning me?

just then my phone vibrates and i turn it on hopes to see kenzies name. but what i say instead surprised me.

maddie ziegler showed up on my phone and i slid to answer.

"hey uh maddie what's up?" i say into the phone and she frantically responds "hey john have you uh seen mackenzie she didn't come home from school and i cant uh find her. she left me a note saying i'm sorry and i don't know what that means"

"no mads i haven't she's been ignoring me the past few weeks, do you want me to help you look?" i say immediately jumping up from my bed and grabbing my sweatshirt.

"ok yea see ya." she responds and hangs up.

i rush out of my house not bothering to tell anyone where i was going. it was pitch black and most of my neighbors were asleep but i didn't care.

i run to the first place that comes to my mind, our secret hide out.

i sprint as fast as my legs could take me. rain pricks my eyes and bushes crawl up my legs but i don't stop.

i push back the door we made out of wood and pray that i find kenzie.

i crawl inside the fort and wipe the water off my eyes.

my heart sinks when i don't see her. as i'm about to let my tears flow something catches my eye.

there's a tiny candle lit and a note thumb racked above it into a piece of wood.

i crawl over to it and tear the pics of paper off the wall. in beautiful cursive letters it reads

"dear johnny,
you have changed my life. you have given me so much joy and i will never be able to thank you for that. when times were at their hardest, you comforted me and made me feel so wanted. i love you more than you will ever know. when i was little, before my aunt died, i had an awful child hood. i thought that my parents didn't love me and my aunt made it obvious i wasn't loved by anyone. she would call me a freak and slap me telling me how unwanted i was. i vowed that if i ever had a kid, that i would get them as far away from here as possible. last month my birth parents reached out to me, they told me that i was just like them and that they regret leaving me. they made me trust them, so i decided to tell them about the baby. j, i'm so sorry for lying to you about so much, but i'm pregnant. i took a test with maddie and it came back positive. my parents then turned their back on me, joey had contacted them before he was arrested saying that they had to do anything in their power to get the baby away from you. they said that if i didn't come and live with them and give them our child. they would hurt you and our baby. my parents are bad people and i know that what they say is true, i can't let your or this baby die. i love you too much to let that happen. when the time is right, you WILL meet our child i can promise you that. please don't come looking for me i don't want you to get hurt. just know that i love you forever. keep playing football and have a normal life. there will come a time where we can be together again. but for now,
goodbye johnny