That Nerdy Gangster Goddess Queen [COMPLETED]

Chapter 30- Flashbacks

Naijanna's Point of View

"When will you stop this?"

Tanong ko. Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa demonyong nakangisi sa harapan ko. Pagod na pagod na akong manahimik.

My child is out there, fighting! Without even no one on her side! I just cant fucking sit here and wait!

"You killed Samantha, and now? You're going to let those children die too? You're so ruthless!"

Sigaw ko sakanya. Nanlilisik ang mata siyang lumapit sakin. He held my neck, his grip was so tight that I found myself struggling. I was gasping for air when he let go of me.

I signed Nazarro to stop, he was struggling to come to my side.

"I killed her?!" He asked and I scoffed. Anong klaseng mukha ang meron siya at sobrang kapal?!

Hindi ako sumagot. Marahas niya akong iniharap sakanya, hawak hawak ang panga ko. I winced, it hurts. May pasa ako dahil sa suntok na ibinigay ng     mga aso niya.

"If I did, it was obviously for you."

My skin crawled because of what he said. Until when is he gonna stop.

"Pinatay ko si Samantha para sa'yo, Naijanna. Siguro oras na rin para sa katapusan ni Nazarro."

"No! Don't you dare touch him!"

"And why is that?"

"Even if you do, it won't change the fact that I would never love someone like you."

Shiego called and he said it was an emergeny. Mabilis akong bumaba at nagpa-alam kela mama. May sinabi pa sila sakin pero hindi ko yun inintindi, dahil ang tanging iniisip ko ngayon ay si Shiego.

"Naijanna!" tawag niya sa pangalan ko. Ngumiti ako at lumapit sa kanya. But I didn't expect that he'll hug me.

I tapped his back and let go of the hug. Awkward naman siyang ngumiti sakin. "What's the emergency?" I asked. Ayoko na din kasing magtanggal dito.

"N-nothing actually. I just want to see you." He said. It made my blood boil, nag-init ang ulo ko, but I decided to hear him out first.

"B-busy ka ba? Sorry, kailangan kong magsinungaling." Dagdag niya at umiwas ng tingin. I sighed and looked away. It was almost sunset.

I was busy admiring the different colors of the sky, as the sun was slowly setting, when I recieve a phone call.

[Naijanna! Come here in the house please, Samantha won't open the door!]

Sa takot na baka may gawin si Samantha sa sarili niya, nagpa-alam na agad ako kay Shiego at tumakbo papunta sa bahay nila.

Samantha was depressed. Everynight I would have to hear her sobs and cries over the phone.

"Tita! Asan po siya?" Tanong ko ng maka-pasok sa bahay nila. Tinuro na lamang ni tita ang itaas kung nasaan ang kwarto ni Samantha, tumakbo ako patungo dun at sumunod naman sakin ang pamilya niya.

"Samantha? Hey, Sam. Its me, Janna. Can I come inside?"

Wala kaming narinig na sagot but minutes after, she opened the door, still hiding then later on pulled me inside.

Parang nabasag ang puso ko ng makita ang namumula niyang mata. There were scratches on her wrist, dumudugo din ang mga labi niya. Sobrang gulo ng buhok niya and she was sweating. Her breathing was rough, and damn she's trembling!

"Shush now, I'm here." I pulled her into a hug. She hugged me back and even cried loudly. I open the door slightly to ask for privacy, just maybe, Samantha won't like it too na iparinig ito sa iba.

"Janna, please, what do I do?" She said between her sobs. My brows forrowed and look down on her, mas matangkad kasi ako kesa sakanya.

"Why? What happen?" Tanong ko. Kumalas siya sa yakap ko at nagtungo sa kama niya para ma-upo. Kinuha ko naman ang baso na nasa bedside table niya at pina-inom siya.

She held my hand after that, I sat down infront of her, with eyes asking for answer.

"Shiego got me pregnant."

Parang sinuntok ako sa dibdib ng dahil sa sinabi niyang 'yon. My hand trembled, Samantha on the other hand, keeps asking for apologies.

Pinahid ko ang luha ko, I looked away as I swallowed hard. Naging blanko ang utak ko, hindi ko na din malaman kung anong dapat kong maramdaman.

"You should rest. If you're pregnant, crying and being stressed won't be good for the baby."

I said and slowly drag her. Pinahiga ko siya sa kama niya, while she was still apologizing and crying, but my mind was too blank. I dont want to hear anything for the moment, I just wanna be deaf.

Nang makatulog si Samantha, lumabas na agad ako ng bahay nila. Nagbilin ako sa mga magulang niya, pero hindi ko sinabing buntis si Sam. It wouldn't be good kung saakin iyon manggagaling.

Umuwi akong luhaan at wala sa sarili. My mom called me for dinner but I said I was full. Hanggang sa nakatulog ako, kakaiyak.

The next day, tumawag ulit si Shiego. Ayoko mang magpakita sakanya, pero bigla kong naisip si Samantha. Kaya no choice ako kundi magbihis at pumunta sa kung saan man siya.

"Hey, you okay?" Yun agad ang bungad niya saakin pagdating ko. I shrugged and sarcastically laugh. Pero tumula ang luha ko ng hinila niya ako at niyakap patalikod. He didn't saw me tearing up, good, because I wasn't ready too.

"I love you." Sumabog ako dahil sa sinabi niya iyon. His faced was shocked when he saw my tears. Pinahid ko iyon at dinuro siya kahit nanginginig na ang mga kamay ko.

"How dare you say you love me, then cheat?!" I shouted. He furrowed, like as if wala siyang ginawang mali.

"What do you mean?" His expression changed. Sinubukan niyang lumapit sakin but I begged him to stop.

"Samantha's pregnant." It were just two words that it broke us both. Napa-upo siya sa lupa, trying to sink in what I've said.

Lumuhod ako sa harapan niya, "Please, take care oh her Shiego, take care of my bestfriend. I want you to take responsibility of her, treat her right. Mahalin mo ang magiging anak niyo, take care of your family and yourself Shiego. I want you to do that.

Ngumiti ako sakanya at pinahid ang luhang tumulo sa malulungkot niyang mata. Tumayo ako at umuwu.

"Mom,ready my flight to Japan. I'm going to stay there for good, just like what you wanted."

Hindi na ako naghintay sa sagot niya at umakyat na ako sa kwarto ko at sinimulang mag-impake. I wrote a letter for Samantha then later on, I fell asleep crying.

Mom did manage to take care of my papers fast and because of some connections, kinabukasan, I found myself bidding goodbyes to my family. Went inside the plane and smiled to own reflection on the plane's window.

I never wanted to let go of you, but I don't want to destroy a child's future too. Wala akong laban sa isang batang walang kamuwang muwang. I love Shiego, but I'm ready to let him go. Besides, Sam loves him more than I do at alam kong kaya niyang alagaan at mahalin si Shiego ng higit pa sa kaya ko.

Months and years passed, I spent my days working. And I met Nazzaro, our childhood friend. Shiego, Samantha, Me, and Nazzaro were childhood friends. Mahirap buwagin noon but then kailangan umalis ng bansa ni Nazzaro, leaving us three behind.

He help me moved on, was there when I always cry my heart out, he became my escape to everything until I finally healed.

And I thought it was the end of all pain. Not until one day, at midnight actually, Shiego called crying over the phone and told me everything he did.

"You killed her. And I would never love a damn killer!"