listening to the sound of soft music.
hearing your heartbeat.
your eyes staring at the blue light of our technology, mind fully awake and eyes completely wide open.
look at the time.
you dont want the night to end.
i dont want to sleep. i want this night to last. i dont want tomorrow to come.
if i do sleep.
i dont want to wake up again to a new day.
because we get up and get things done the very next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day after that and the day after that and the day after that and the day after that.
our whole lives
until we die.
you start thinking, is this why younger kids commit suicide?
is this why teens turn their back against reality with drugs and music and internet trends?
...
you're tired, im tired, we're both tired.
teens are tired of the same shit.
some teens are having the time of their lives.
some are not.
.
my eyes are closing.
i dont want to sleep.
.
you can't talk online with your "friends" anymore because you're tired of having the same damn conversation in the end.
you dont tell them how you feel because you feel its a waste of time and dont want to bother them with your problems. or you think youre complaining so you keep your mouth shut because kids have it worst than you do, you think to yourself.
it hurts being silent.
but bottling and locking everything in helps.
no matter how hard it is, they're safe and no one knows how you truly feel and really NO ONE NEEDS TO KNOW.
dont sleep yet.
i dont want to sleep yet.
i dont want to sleep i dont want to sleep i dont want to sleep i dont want to sleep.
12:50 AM
.
i hope everyone is having a good night.
tomorrow
another day.
5:56 AM.
ESTÁS LEYENDO
in my head
De Todothis is just im writing of what my brain is telling me to, in the end the text has no meaning behind it. so dont worry or anything. if you care. which wouldnt be necessary
