One Night With My Bestfriend

Kabanata 14

And i did that, but after Ashton and I got our Tattoos,  i had a wonderlust tattoo's, drinawing ko talaga iyon its one of my bucket list to have one.

I have this, thing like Ancora Imparo written in a paper, the whole paper was colored in blue while the ancora imparo was inside it with blank ink, i had these kind of stamps, like letter stamps, inked in green, while the other stamp is from my favorite country singapore, it was inked in red, magkadikit dikit sila na parang pinatong, and i also had an Anchor inked in white,along with a little alien. All of the tattoos are little, pero patong patong sila in a way na kita kita iyong details. Outlines lang ang mga iyon. Hindi siya fully inked because i want it that way.

It was inked on the under my side boobs, on the rib part, sa tabi, Ashton has the same position of tattoos, as mine, sa baba iyon ng pecs niya, sa side, it was inked in blue green its a planet, there's a spaceship beside it, It was inked in red on the outlines same as mine.

After it was drawn, in his body, dinagdagan iyon ng background, it was dark blue like the space, na parang nag fe fade. 

"Why did you inked a space ship and a planet?" I asked while we were leaving in tattoo shop.

"You are my Alien, I am your home, and even though you feel lost. Im going to be there to pick you up every step of the way."  He winked at me.

"What a softy." I rolled my eyes.
He stole a kiss from me nabigla nanaman ako.

"That was just a pair up with your weird ink. " he said.

And after that, i went home like nothing happened between us. Diba ang gago ko.

Sampal ang nakuha ko pag uwi ko instead of a hug, that its okay you did your best. Hindi naman talaga enough ang mga ginagawa ko sa buhay.

"Eh bakit may nakapasa kung mahirap? Ayusin mo nga iyang utak mo Alanis! Hindi ka lang nag aaral ng mabuti. Huwag mo akong bigyan ng mga walang kwenta mong mga dahilan."

My parents decided that is should just enroll myself, in college located in Daet, and i agree even though i thought im just gonna go back.

I didnt even say good bye to Billy, and Auntie either.

I took a deep sigh, i was waiting for the results, i took an entrance exam and i was waiting for the results online it's  been ten days, i stayed here for like three months, already, i change my phone number, i deactivated all my social media accounts. And everyday i feel empty.

It was done, done.

"Alanis, tulala ka nanaman" that was Billy, he came here a week ago, just to visit me.

"Self Isolation its not healthy, stop being an asshole to yourself" he said angrily.

I miss Ashton so much.  I want to cry.
Pumasok nalang ako sa loob ng bahay at iniwan si Billy.

Hindi ko alam kung ako nga ba talaga iyong dinayo niya o iyong ibang tao.

I open up the Television, just to hear sounds while i am overthinking.

Does he have girls around?

Pinikit ko nalang aking mga mata remembering his sly smiles because of me, somehow i felt an electrifying connection when i first saw him.

When he bullied me before, because of Alana.

Kinabukasan nagising ako sa katok ng kapatid ko. " Mara, may bisita ka!!!"

Pinagpara dadabog niya iyong pintuan ng kwarto ko.

"Oo na!!" Sigaw ko, i waited for like 5 minutes before getting up as much as i want to sleep more. Nakakahiya sa bisita.

Bumaba ako sa hagdanan namin para sipatin kaagad kung sino yun.

"Lanis.."  he whispered. He literally grabbed me fast and hugged me.

"I just can't do it, stay friends?"  May halong galit niyang pagkasabi. Dala dala niya iyong letter na iniwan ko sa tiyahin ko.

Tinulak ko siya palayo. We are not on the same world. 

"Go home Ashton." Mahinahon kong sabi. He tried to step forward and hugged me pero malakas ko siya tinulak but he stay stilled.

The Dela Cerna's owns a lot of companies, hindi lang sila magaling sa manufacturing, but it all started when the comapany's real forte was stock and trade.

Ngayoy namamayagpag parin ito.
There's only ten percent or more of the Philippines population knows about how stock market works.

And as my father tried to fill, his last resort of money, he trusted the Dela Cerna's they lure my Papa, into this industry, and they got away with it.

At dahil nalulugi ang isa sa mga company nila, they strike for the real deal, to use my dad to negotiate with the company for a merger. As my Papa, got the half of the money they talked about, so parang naging messenger iyong tatay ko sa kabilang company and since it was a partnership, it should be half and half.

My dad, deposited the money. To Marisol Dela Cerna, it's Ashton's mom.

My heart throbbed in pain, i dont want to explain this to him because the more i am near him the more that my Family, will be financially broke.

We're still in the verge of debts, konting panahon nalang baka tinatakbuhan na namin sila.

However, the way it was deposited was through the DC's body guard. He said that they'll take it from there and my Dad trusted them so much along with his investments but it backfired on him.

The thing is that our family is broke, how and why are we still like this if dad embezzled the fund?

"Maigi nga at friendship nalang inooffer ko sayo? It's better right?"

Walang sakitan, at walang mga taong madadamay, his mother got me on the neck.

I received an email, shes one greedy bitch, but still cant do it personally to talk to me.

I tried to smile but he looks so pissed.

"Wala kang magagawa kung hindi umuwi nalang Ashton, nobody needs you here, everything is waiting for you in Manila." I said calmy but i felt the pain in my heart.

It really sucks to act, pushing him away, but i just so want to hug him tight.

"I dont like you okay? It was just nothing everything is nothing, umalis kana!"  Namungay ang mga mata niya, i gave him pain.

Umiling iling siya. At tinalikuran ako. Based on his expression galit na galit siya.  Wala akong magagawa kung hindi itaboy yung taong tumulong saakin nung mga panahong lugmok na lugmok ako sa buhay.

"I missed you so much, that i have to let go."

I deeply sighed, this is just one of those guys, he's not for me and there will be someone who's gonna be great than him.

Tumngo ako sa kwarto ko at doon nalang kumulong i saw Billy out in the window, dala dala iyong pamangkin ko pinaparawan.

"They started to sue you! They did! They'll pin you up right now, hindi ka makakaalis riyan. Hahanap sila ng ipapain sa problemang iyan. Madumi mag laro ang mga De La Cerna." I heard Attorney Lim's statement.

Napailing nalang ang Papa ko.  Mas lalo siyang pumayat, at stressed na stressed. I was checking in the living room.  Nag uusap silang dalawa and no one noticed that i was here.

Sa eskandalong nangyayari alam na ng buong Camarines Norte kung anong ginawa ng tatay ko. Everybody gives a fuck when there's controversial shits going on in this town.

Hindi ko lang alam kung anong imumukha ko sa pasukan, everyone knows it.

" i dont wanna plead guilty just because we dont have any way , Attorney! It was unfair."

Lumayo ako at pumunta nalang sa palayan ng aking Tiyahin, currently we're staying out from people's judging eyes.

Ashton has connections that's why he found me.