Logically Defected [Beta Version] BxB

Logic 11

"Uhh... You kind of said that for the third time now," Raihen felt uneasy.

"I did? It's just that, I don't really express myself, so, it's not really a big deal, I don't think I have the ability to understand or feel emotions," Keisuke platonically replied scratching the back of his head.

"Uhh, okay, I think I ran out of things to say," Raihen laughs nervously, now that's a first.

"On the contrary, let's just find your friend," I suggested.

"Okay," Keisuke nods, his stoic face still doesn't seem to change.

Keisuke seems like someone I can easily get along with. I wonder if he thinks like me or if he's just deliberately trying to conceal himself.

Aside from that, I'm starting to feel a bit distant from Arum lately. It makes me realize how much often we spend our time together and I hope he can tell me the meaning behind all of this. I've grown tired of relying on fake assumptions.

I just wish I don't feel so conflicted right now.

"Arum's POV"

While rehearsing for our theater, we got dismissed by the bell sooner than we all anticipated, I guess it's nice to know that the whole class was into it, some of us were rather disappointed it had to end.

Michelle was nowhere to be found for some reason, and Kaze? He ditched us. I have absolutely no idea what happened between him and Hide, but pretty sure he was pissed. Knowing my best friend, I think he knows how to deal with almost any kind of people, but a delinquent like Kaze feels like another story.

I immediately told Hide and Raihen that I'd be seeing Yvonne again. I lied actually, I didn't text her to meet up with me. After what I did to Hide yesterday, I still don't think I can face him right now. I'm the worst. Why didn't he even react? I want to know his thoughts, I wonder if I made him feel awkward or something or if he actually hates me now. Of course, he couldn't react! I even told him to forget about it! I'm such an idiot!

"Arum!" A familiar voice called, someone tapped fingers behind my back. I turn around to see one of the most beautiful person that ever existed.

"Yvonne! You're pretty as usual," I complimented.

"Why thank you! You haven't texted me all morning," Yvonne wondered, she tilts her face sideways and pokes her cheek.

"Oh, I-"

"You know what, never mind! We should just hang out together as usual!" She immediately cuts off my sentence and locks one of her arms around mine and walks us forward.

"Wait," I immediately stomped my feet into place before she could drag me.

"Is there something wrong? You look rather troubled," She politely asked out of genuine concern.

"Truth is, I actually am... Sorry, I just want some alone time right now," I honestly replied. She was immediately saddened but her face still brightens up.

"I understand, don't worry! How about let's take a break from each other and meet again to talk about it on our Friday dinner date? Sounds good?" Yvonne smiles brightly, she reminds me of a pop teen personality.

"I'll be cheering for you during your competition of course!" She added.

"Thanks, Yvonne, that means a lot, I'll definitely see you again, I promise," I also smile in return. I'm extremely glad that she knows how to be super patient and understanding, I don't deserve a girl like her.

"Toodles!" She does her signature goodbye by kissing and waving her fingers as she leaves.

Ahh, I can't believe I let a girl leave like that. I'm quite disappointed in myself, or probably just miserable.

I think it's time I stopped lying to myself.

"I'm in love with Hide."

It's not that I'm denying it as Tohru said. But in a way, I think I am. To make things even more clear or to put it in simpler words.

I just never realized it.

I was never so sure if what I felt was romantic, I was confused. It's been years and it took me this long to realize that I have feelings for my very own best friend.

I was never gay, I didn't want to acknowledge that idea either, the idea of me being one. All my life I only ever dated and fell in love with girls.

I was afraid that I would be forcing myself against Hide if I ever told him I liked him. He never believed in romance. He has never experienced sexual attraction before, I even tried to introduce him to porn once, but he never really understood it.

I've had countless amounts of crushes, Yvonne is one of them. I was thinking she would finally be the one meant for me. But maybe it's because Hide and I share something special. In reality, I never wanted to replace that, there are times when I just become lost in thought and become really flustered when talking to Hide just like last week.

I never thought I actually felt that way, maybe it's why I kissed him. I wanted to confirm if I really was in love with him so I acted on impulse. Wouldn't that make me a selfish person? I know it's impossible, he will never like me back. I don't think I can face Hide the same way ever again. What I did was unforgivable.

"He's my best friend damn it!" I furiously punched a nearby wall.

A short guy right next to me suddenly shrieked and became startled, I think I just scared someone.

"Y-You're not going to hurt me are you?" The boy frightened. I think he's overreacting too much, he's actually sweating and trembling! When I look closely, he's actually really cute for a guy, he has baby face features, his height falls short just below my shoulders, shiny blue eyes, and short fluffy red hair.

"Uhh... You okay there buddy?" I kindly asked, he slowly observes and looks at me. I just hope he doesn't run away or anything.

"Wait, you're the captain of the soccer club, are you? I see you very often," The fluffy guy politely asked as his face brightens.

"Yeap, that's me! I'm Arum," I proudly introduced with a grin.

"Thank goodness, I thought you wanted to punch me there or something! I wish I was strong like you!" The fluffy boy's eyes sparkled like there's no tomorrow. I think I got myself a new friend or something.

"Ah! Sorry for being rude! My name is Ayumu!" He introduced. I swear he kind of looks like an innocent kid, I hope he's not being bullied or anything.

"Nice to meet you Ayumu," I shook hands with him.

"Umm, you see... I'm actually looking for a girl right now! Her name is Mai! I want to confess to her!" Ayumu shyly exclaimed.

"Wow, that girl will surely be lucky, let's go find her then!" I encouraged. For such a cute looking guy, I think he has guts.

"What do I do? I-I'm so nervous! My friend must be looking for me right now."

"Just be yourself! Don't worry about it!" I reassuringly told.

"Okay! I'll be myself! Got it!" The fluffy boy takes a sudden step forward but trips and lands on his face. Ouch.

"Whoa there, are you okay little buddy?" I concernedly asked. I help him get up, but he remains silent. After a few seconds, he starts sniffling. Wait, wait! Is he crying?!?

"Wah..." He sobbed like a little child. Oh lord, what do I do? What do I do?

"Hey! Why are you crying? Cheer up!" I attempted to comfort him by rubbing his back in hopes to calm him down. Still... I'm quite impressed.

'A confession huh?' I told in my head. My face turned blank and my mind became void.

It all seemed so... Impossible...

I wonder if I can I properly confess Hide...