JONGHYUN was?

Tissues Speaks to Tears

I know and I've seen a lot of blingers questioning their existence, what they're doing, why they're doing it, why does it hurt, what's the essence of it all?

It's pretty hard, I mean, a lot of you know this young idol from the moment he entered into SMTOWN, you rooted for him all the way to the stage of being a solo artist, some of you went for his fan signs, spoke to him, gifted him presents and cheered him on. Blingers/Shawols you were the people that took him on, the people that strengthen him and shielded him from his haters. You rebuked those that badmouthed him.

So, why shouldn't it hurt? Why shouldn't you cry every night before shutting your eyes to sleep? Why shouldn't you cry every time you listen to his endearing voice? Why shouldn't you cry when End of a day,Our Season, Blinking Game, Love Is So Nice, Lonely and Let Me Out speak so well of what you didn't notice?

From Blinking Game,
"Sometimes, I'm afraid to fall asleep. What if I open my eyes to a different world?"

From Let Me Out,
"Someone please hold me, I'm exhausted from this world.
Someone please wipe me, I'm drenched with tears.
Someone please notice my struggles first.
Please acknowledge the poor me. Please help me."

From Lonely,
"Baby I'm so lonely so lonely
I feel like I'm alone.
Still, I don't wanna hide it from you. But, I'm used to just holding it in.
Understand me."

Its hard, very hard.
It's like a mother losing her child, you know? For some you saw SHINee grow up, your bias grew up in front of you, you nurtured his career through his efforts, you protected his fame and helped him to where he is today. Then, one day you wake up and you found out it could gradually slip away and be called a past. I can't bear that! SHINee world is like a baby and you Shawols (MVPs, Blingers, Lockets, Flamers and Taemints) are their mothers and the pain or the slightest feeling and thoughts are unbearable. Mama Kim is sure a strong woman, I would have gone mad on the streets (Mind you, I'm not a mother. I'm only 18 years old. But, I understand how grave it gets when you lose someone😑).

However, the essential part is, the person isn't lost forever. He has perched on our hearts, he doesn't just secure such a frail position, he stays there and build a strong ground, one he can use to assist us fight against anything. Especially, the pain that resides after the lost.