In Which

They

in the night
BEHIND ME
they Curl!
           Tall and
Frantically Black
Thumbs aching and shaking I curl too
t ight tightttttt tight
Alone! So
  alone
I bite my lip and think of gouging my arms out
While they
WATCH ME

fuck fuck
Get Away
Get Out
        Get Back

i cannot move — for the terror eats up my limbs and spits back out the guts of my naked thoughts
Everything is black
Everything is big
their faceless FACES
                      burn me Alive

In the dark
i tremble and cry with the fat fear of it
Don't
      dddddontt
don't box me up
Cardboard cuts my skin
            like the monsters my brain paints
just
  For Me
rip me to shreds and leave my intestines on the coils

I am not asleep
I am not asleep
I am not asleep