Forever: The Beauty of Robsten

Chapter 14: Smiles and Sorrows

“And what, love?”

“So he calls, and he told me that he overreacted and that he’s sorry and stuff” He brushed another tear away.

“Well that’s great Kristen, why are you still so upset”

“Because I hurt him Rob”

“What? Hey sweetheart, Shh” I was shaking in his arms by then. I managed to get myself together for a few more seconds.

“He told me he was so sorry, and that he just got caught up by the media, and Rob? He said that he’s never made such a big mistake, and…he l-loves m-me.” I took a deep breath in and exhaled. “He said that he never wanted to lose me again and that he’s been hurting since he left me in the rain. He said that I’m the most precious thing he’s ever been blessed with and he’ll cherish me forever. He s-said t-that h-he will n-never let m-m-me  g-go” I was crying really bad. My whole body was shaking as if I’d just had a seizure.

“Kris? What did you tell him?” he said taking his hands away from my hold and bringing my face closer to his.

“I told him that he didn’t ever need to let me go by himself. I told him he didn’t need to lose me again by himself; he didn’t need to hurt because of what he’d said to me anymore. I told him he didn’t need to love me anymore”

“Why Kirsten?” his voice was a barely audible whisper

“Because Rob, he doesn’t deserve this. He doesn’t deserve watching me like this this. It hurts him every time he sees me. Rob he…Michael deserves to be loved and cherished by someone that’ll bring him happiness, not give him pain. I told him that, and Rob his eyes were full of tears. I’ve never seen him cry before. His eyes were red and…and…Rob it’s all because of me, yet the saddest part is, I’ll give him even more pain if he’s with me than without me, yet what I saw in his eyes as I was telling him that, Rob seeing him, seeing anyone like that is excruciating” I whispered, drenching his shirt with tears, he just pulled me closer and held me there. “I let him go, but I don’t think he’s done the same with me yet”

“Kristen, I see your view and maybe you’re right, maybe you’re wrong, but Kris, I know you, you would never hurt anybody, you would never let anyone hurt and not do anything about it. Kris, Michael is hurting, and you are too because of that. Why are you doing this Kris? There’s something more, I know there is, I’m here Kris, tell me” he traced the outline of my lips softly and carefully, making the slightest contact with my skin. He locked his gaze on mine and looked nowhere else. I was trapped.

“Michael deserves someone that will return his love, Rob” he nodded but his eyes were still searching mine.

“You love him Kristen”

“I know Rob, I love him, but…”

“But…Hey Kris look at me” I took my eyes off him so I could think, but he brought them back to his.

“I love him, but Rob, don’t you see? I’m not in love with him. I thought I was, I thought what we had was everything, I thought that the love I’ve had, and still do, for all these years was real. And it is, but not in that sense”

“And you realize this now…?”

”I know what love is now. I know how you feel when you’re in it. I know how you react when you’re given it. I know how you protect it when it’s in danger” I lightly touched his face with my thumb, as he’d done, and he smiled, a smile that was so genuine it made my heart flutter, but now, I didn’t have to ignore these things anymore. He had a questioning look on his face, as if he was experimenting. He let go of me completely and scooted back a foot. He looked up to see my reaction, and apparently I’d given him what he wanted to see. My face fell a bit when he backed away; he took in my expression and inched closer, but only the slightest bit. His mouth twitched a bit when he saw my face lift, but he controlled it and resumes dis serious face. He had his eyebrows furrowed upward and his eyes were full of ice blue intensity. He slowly stretched out his hand but let it hovering a millimeter away from my lips, my heart rate picked up, and he was close enough to see my throat, the place where my ever racing pulse quickened at the sight of him. He soaked in every part of my face with eyes and left them lingering at each part for two seconds, then moved on to the next. When he got to my eyes, he held me there for more than his two-second ritual, he held me for a very long time. He then made his way downward an when his eyes settled on my slightly parted lips, he came closer to me.  He then made contact with his hovering hand on my bottle lip and lightly pushed it downward then moved his hand to my cheek cupping it. He did the same with his other hand. I drew in a quick breath and he smiled exhaling directly on my mouth. He was really enjoying the way I was reacting to him. He brought his lips over to my left ear and whispered to me in a tender, gentle voice.

“I’ll never let anyone hurt you like that again” and he placed his lips on my earlobe, then to my jaw, tracing a pattern with his lips, he made his way to my throat, then the point of my chin. “Ever” he said then locked his soft lips on mine and crashed my body against his. He took me in with everything he had and held me as if he’d have to let me go any second. He softly traced the outline of my lips with his tongue and caressed my hair. I felt everything he was feeling, and for once, I could show him, I didn’t have to hide anymore. I was free.

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