The Return Of An Unexpected Lockwood *Book 1* ✓

Chapter 7 ~ Tiffany's FIRST Full Moon

Tiffany's POV

Yesterday was the day I triggered my werewolf gene and last night I couldn't sleep just thinking about how awful and scared this is going to be tonight is going to be my first full moon and I don't know if I will be able to take it, I'm strong, I always want to be there for everyone and never realized that when it comes down to being there for myself I just let myself down, I always want to be just like the strongest person I know and the strongest person I know is Tyler, but one day I'm going to snap, and I don't even want to think about what my family and friends will think of me if they realize that, I'm a monster, an abomination of nature...

I was sitting on my bed Bonnie's house with tears streaming down my face crying silently as I had been doing all night long, It was 10 a.m. and all I could think about was how much pain I'm going to endure and that is when my big brother entered my room no doubt trying to calm me but I can't think of one thing he can say that will ever make me think I'm worth saving...

"It's going to be okay" Tyler says as he sits on my bed with me and puts an arm on my knee trying to reassure me

I look at him with tears still streaming down my face as I say in anger "I know you've gone through this but you've had a year to adjust I don't know what to expect what to do how to ease my pain, I'm broken Tyler we both are you just don't want to admit that being a werewolf is a curse, and I don't know if I can handle this kind of curse, I don't know what I would do if I killed someone, hurt someone"
he looked at me with shock as I rolled my eyes and got up and left Bonnie's house as I felt I needed to drink my feelings away so I went to The Grill

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I went up to the bar as I enter the grill I just wanted to be so drunk that I barely felt any pain emotionally, mentally and physically, As I sat at the bar matt was the bartender, he looked at me with concern as he could see that my eyes were puffy and my eyes were red he knew I was crying...he looked at me with curiosity and concern I just didn't want to share with him the horrid feeling that I have inside of me right now... so I'm not going to bore him with the details

"What's Wr--" he began before I cut him off with "Tequila"

he looked at me for a minute before he walked over and grabbed the tequila off the top shelf of the bar and gave it to me he was pouring me a shot and was about to take the bottle away before I stopped him, I grabbed his arm and squeezed tightly leaving a mark As I said "leave the bottle"
He rolled his eyes and set the bottle back down next to my shot
And walked away to a booth that Damon, Caroline and Elena were sitting in...

I sat there with tears coming off my face but I didn't make one sound I was just looking at my shot thinking about how much I wish I never came back, I made a promise and I never break a promise, And by now I'm already a wolf so if I leave anyway I will just be doing this all on my own and I run the risk of killing anyone in my path and I can't kill anyone, I wiped my tears away and then quickly downed my shot

I felt my mind was exploding I didn't know what to do how to feel my emotions we're all over the place I felt angry, scared, sad, I just couldn't stop crying even if I tried
After a minute I downed another shot and I felt someone sit next to me I didn't look up to see who it was I just kept staring at the bottle of tequila in front of me...

"Easy, love" I heard a British man's voice say as then I look up and see, Klaus Mikaelson sitting next to me at the bar...