Sab badly needed load tonight, then here comes her cousin, Diego, telling her that he knows someone who could give her load... what she did not expect was that the guy who gave her load was her long time crush, Juan Gomez de Liaño.
Start: December 2...
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This felt weird.
Super weird.
I was damn nervous even if it wasn't my wedding.
Even if I'm just one of the bridesmaids.
I looked at myself in the mirror.
I looked... okay, I guess.
Simple, but okay.
I was thinner than I was before... but I looked okay.
I got the flowers on top of my bed and held it. I looked once more in the mirror. "What if..." I trailed off. I couldn't even say those words. I couldn't even think about it without something inside me breaking.
Even after years, it still feels the same.
There was a knock on the door. "Come in..." I said.
It was my cousin, the groom---Kuya Diego. I smiled timidly at him as I sat on the end of the bed at this hotel room. "You look great," I commented as I looked at him wearing a barong. "You look handsome as always," I smiled.
He smiled back and sat beside me. "You look beautiful," sabi niya naman sa akin pabalik.
"Yeah, it runs in the blood I guess."
And we both laughed at that.
I heard him sigh. I sighed too. I couldn't even look at him in the eye, because I knew it in myself that he was one of those persons whom I disappointed with my choices in life.
"Thank you..." he suddenly said.
"For what?" I asked, this time looking at him.
"For coming home... alam ko namang mahirap para sa 'yo na bumalik sa Pilipinas, but you did it for me. To attend my wedding."
I didn't come home.
This wasn't home yet.
"Of course, I wouldn't miss it for the world."
"Seryoso, thank you," he repeated.
"Edi welcome," I said.
Tumawa siya sa akin. "Namiss kita," he said.
"Namiss ko din kayo nina Emilio," I smiled.
Sumabay na ako kay Kuya Diego papunta sa simbahan. I wanted to be early. Ayokong dumating ng sakto sa oras. I'm sure people will just ask me questions. Questions that I wasn't ready to answer yet.
And I'm sure... I would see him.
So instead, I chose to come early and just isolate myself inside the church. As minutes passed by, people started to come and I just sat there... I just didn't know how I'm gonna be able to talk to my relatives and some of my friends. It's just... hard for me.
