Refusing to Serve Me? Then Off With Your Head!

Chapter 34 Cry for Zhen to See

Feng Zhao Wen's anxious face inched closer to me as he spoke to my ears in a loud tone, "Xiao Yi...... Xiao Yi...... Let go of your hand.... Stop biting yourself..." It was as though there was another me, coldly watching as he hastily pried my fisted hands away before pinching my jaw to stop me from biting my lips...... Everything felt so distant.

It was as though my soul had flown out of my body and had looked at myself from outside. My fists were tightly clenched and my teeth were biting on my lower lip. My entire body simply froze. Tian Bing Qing hastily ran in with an anxious face, "What is wrong with her?" He helped Feng Zhao Wen slowly unravel my fingers. My hands were already stained red from blood.

Feng Zhao Wen took out a yellow handkerchief and stuffed it in my mouth that he had pried open. "Somebody come and bring Shi Qing here!"

The head physician practically flew here. He shakes his beard as he checked my pulse. Then, he gave my face a heavy pat as he spoke loudly, "Wake up!"

I could hear Feng Zhao Wen saying, "It is useless, Official Shi. She has lost her perception of physical pain. Maybe she was too shocked by the regent's death, back then. She had an entanglement in her heart because she thought she angered him to death. The regent only had this one daughter, he doted on her so much....."

The physician pulled my ears before speaking in a hard tone, "An Xiao Yi.... My disciple.... Your Father did not die because of you. He was killed by the previous empress dowager. Wake up and pay her back for it....."

Something burst within me and before I knew it, I sprayed a mouthful of warm blood on Feng Zhao Wen's face. I stared at him, whose face was a sight of delight, "She is awake now! She is awake now!" He did not care for the blood that had been splattered on his face and instead hugged me tight.

I regained my awareness.

Official Shi checked on my pulse, but I simply took my hand away, "I am fine. I am just a little tired. I want to rest."

Feng Zhao Wen furtively shook his head at him. He and Tian Bing Qing then, retreated away. Feng Zhao Wen helped me get up, "Zhen will rest with you."

I pushed him away, "Go away. Your entire body is full of the smell of blood, it is so uncomfortable."

"Then let me at least send you to the bed first," the emperor pleaded in a low voice.

I looked at him. His phoenix eyes were curved and he was trying to hide the anxiety that was lingering within them. I could see my own reflection in his eyes; that deep imprint of teeth under my lower lips. For some reasons, I could not bring myself to reject him. He helped me get on the bed before covering me with a blanket. Then, he deftly got off the bed.

I could hear the sound of water and before long, he returned with a cleansing cloth in his hand. He used it to gently wipe my face and when he got on my lips, he whispered to me, "This will hurt a little. Bear with this for a moment."

I heard him just now; telling Physician Shi that I had lost my perception of pain and yet he went around saying this. How pointless. I fixed my eyes on him, feeling the gentle way he cleaned my lips. The eyes in which he looked at me with were sorrowful; the way he was behaving was unlike the Feng Zhao Wen I knew. I had never seen this kind of worried and sad him.

He only went to bath after cleaning my hand and face.

Before he even came back, I already entered the world of deep sleep.

I dreamed of a barren land. I kept walking, not knowing where I came from and where I was heading. The world was vast and empty.

When I woke up, the sky was already bright. I massaged my numb and painful neck. I could feel a warm body practically glued to me from behind. It was summer; even though there were ice blocks on every corner of the palace, sweats continued to be formed on my forehead.