gold & lilacs

XLIX

| we were not

dear ex-bestfriend,

when you had spread your arms open childishly to express the amount of your love for chocolates, did you know that at some point a couple of years later, we would stop talking about ice creams and boys and movies and beaches and daydreams? had you known then that we would stop talking about everything? had you known that we would have to pretend to be too busy to even look at each other just to avoid any more awkward unfelt smiles? does your heart shiver every time we cross each other as if we've never known each other? do your insides burn when someone mentions my name to you like we're still friends and that everything is okay? do you cry when you want to talk to me but you don't have a solid reason because not a thing other than a solid reason can bring us together ( temporarily, anyway )? do you still remember my favourite songs or my first dance performance? did you know that i would stop eating milk chocolates because you loved them and they remind me of you?

do you know what went so wrong? is it real or are you pretending too? we were not meant to end so subtly.

meant to be enemies |