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Part 25: Separation

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Your eyes blink several times, adjusting to the light that passed above your head. Your eyes locked into the ceiling while the bed runs very fast.

T: Hey, everything is gonna be fine. I promise.

Your attention goes to the side of the bed where Tony's voice comes from. His voice sounds unclear but you can see pretty clear that Tony holding your hand and two nurses push your bed pretty fast. Tony is half running catching with the speed of the bed while he holds your right hand. You can feel something sticky on his hand. You take a peek at his hand and you can see blood on it. Is he hurt when he fight with Alex?

Suddenly you feel a sting on your belly. Your left hand is on your belly, to at least help you with the hurt, but is not. It is really hurt that you hold Tony's hand pretty hard now. He squeezes your hand back to tell you that he is right there.

Y/n: Tony... It's so hurt...

T: I know, I'm sorry. Everything is gonna be alright. Don't worry... you'll be fine, babe.

You shut your eyes because your stomach feels like its burning. You then recall what happened. You remember the last thing you saw is the children and some blood dripping from between your legs. The blood on Tony's hand is not Tony's, it's yours. Your left hand now grip tightly to your stomach realizing that you may miscarriage. You keep your left hand on your stomach to make your baby safe.

Y/n: Tony... the baby...

T: He will be fine. He is strong, okay? He is the little me.

Tony just gives you a little smile but you can see tears in his eyes. He must be very worried.

Y/n: Save him... please.

T: I will, we will. Don't worry, he is gonna be fine.

He kissed your hand that he holds and swipe the tears that come down your cheek. You can see that he tries to hide his sadness.

-Mr. Stark, we are sorry but this is where you can go.

T: No, I'll come with her.

-We are sorry Mr. Stark, but you need to stay here. We will try our best to save her and the baby. Please wait.

T: No, I-

-Mr. Stark, we are sorry but this is how far you can go.

Tony knew that the nurse is right. He can't go with you anymore. He is depressed and he looks one last time to you before they start pushing the bed again.

T: You'll be fine, our baby will be fine. I'll see you soon, babe.

His voice seems goes farther and your eyes feel heavy. Tony gives you a kiss on your forehead and you can feel his hand starting to lose. As his hands let go of your hand, the sting in your stomach hurts you so much. You surrender to the pain and passed out again.

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You opened your eyes and found you are in a room. You feel someone squeeze your hand and you found Tony at the side of your bed. There is a bruise on his face, probably because of Alex's punch before.

T: Hey, babe...

He gives you a little smile and he caresses your cheek with his other free hand. He looks sad and worried but he is trying to hide it from you. You tried to put away his worried.

Y/n: I'm fine Tony. We are fine. Don't worry.

You say it weak. Tony put his head down and you can hear his little sobbing. Tony never acts like this before and you feel something bad must be happening. You hold your belly and you really wish that nothing happen to your baby. That he is still there. The thought of losing your baby is making a tear down your cheeks.

Y/n: Tony... please tell me our baby is okay. He is fine right?

Your grip on your belly is harder as you really want to hold your baby. Tony squeezes your hand and look at you now. There is a tear fall down his cheek and this is the first time you saw him sheds a tear.

T: I'm sorry...

As soon as you heard Tony said that you knew that you lost your baby. You try to deny it just like the first time you knew you are pregnant with it.

Y/n: No... Tony. No.

You feel tears falling down your cheek. Your eyes get blurry and you are sobbing. You can't still believe it.

Y/n: I can- I can still feel him, Tony. He is not gone, he is here.

You hold your belly because you can still feel him inside you. He is still inside you a few hours ago. He can't go now, but Tony's eyes tell you differently. The deep sadness on Tony's eyes tells you that your baby is gone. He is not with you anymore. You start crying out loud and Tony hugs you. He tried to calm you down. You fight his hug by punching him but he hugs you really tight. He is sobbing while hugs you.

T: I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

Y/n: No, No!

T: I'm sorry...

Y/n: No, No! You promised me! You promised me to keep him safe! You Promised!

T: I'm sorry, so sorry...

You get tired as you try to release from his hug. Your hand now drops beside your body and you just sob in Tony's hug. Part of yourself blames yourself because at first, you denied the baby, you even want to abort it. Now that he is really gone, you really regret it ever thought about that.

Y/n: This is all my fault-

T: No, baby... No.

Y/n: I want him gone before-

T: No, none of this is your fault.

Y/n: It is all my fault- I wish it. I'm sorry, so sorry-

T: Hey, Hey, babe.

Tony releases his hug and holds both of your arms. He looks at you in the eye and you can see that his eyes are swollen. He must have cried a lot when you are passed out.

T: None of this is your fault. Your wish is just a wish, it is not the reason why we lost him.

Tony cupped your face and he tries to wipe the tears down on your cheeks. You cry on his chest again and he hugs you closer to him. You hug him tight as you begging to bring back your baby.

Y/n: Please bring him back, please... Tony. I'll do anything, I'll keep him safe.

T: I'm sorry, babe. I'm sorry.

You cry out loud on Tony's chest. Tony strokes your back to make you calm but Tony knows that it will be impossible to make you calm now. He feels the same pain as you are. He is heartbroken like you but he needs to be strong for you also. Tony only has you to go through this, so are you. There is nothing both of you can do now than grieving for the loss of your unborn child.