Maybe, Everyday | taekook ✔️

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2014

Taehyung never thought love would be this cruel, he never expect love would be this painful, he just thought it feels so good, feels so great, it made him happy.

He was too happy back then, he just go with it, loving a boy that is so sweet, so adorable, so kind and precious. He's too in love back then.

In his personality, everyone called him cold, a bully, so serious, and do bad things, like going out at night to drink or smoke with his friends, get some money from his parents secretly and buy stuff he wants, or get money from nerds students in his school.

That's the life he grew up with in his teenage life, but someone changed him into something he did not expect, the boy who also changed him into different man he could be.

Maybe he's not destined to be good like any other people, maybe he can't be like someone everyone wants him to be, maybe the only boy he loved years ago could be the only one that can make him be like what he was before. But that's too unrealistic.

1998

"Don't make it so hard for us to do this, you don't want us to beat you up, do you?" Jimin said, Taehyung's friend. Jimin cornered the poor boy on the wall, as the poor kid just lowered his head, keeping his mouth shut and protecting his bag. Taehyung just watch his other friends, also saying something shit about the kid who's definitely scared and is about to cry.

"Listen, kid. Give us your money and you can go, isn't it easy?" Kihyun asked smirking, slapping the kid lightly.

"I-I w-won't-" the kid stuttered, flinching when Jimin slammed his hands on the wall near his head.

"Stop that Jimin," Taehyung said, standing up from the bench he was sitting on in the rooftop of the abandoned building in their school.

Taehyung sighed, walking up to them, he stand near the kid and slipped his hand in the pocket jeans of the kid, fishing out his wallet.

The kid looked up at him, seeing Taehyung taking some money out of his wallet, and slapping his wallet back on his face.

"Easy, you're just making the kid scared when you can take it from him easily," Taehyung said, giving the money to Kihyun.

"Now we're done, let's go," Taehyung beckoned.

"Don't you dare tell the teachers about this or else you'll be dead," Jimin smirked. The kid just nod quickly in fear seeing the boys walk away and went down the school.

"So where are we going?" Kihyun asked.

"As usual spend the money at the pub, that would be great," Jimin said, clinging his arms around Kihyun's shoulder while Taehyung just walking along with them behind.

"I think I'm not gonna go, i have something to do," Taehyung said almost a whisper, Kihyun and Jimin stopped and looked at him. Something in Taehyung's gut made him feel sick.

"Why? Are you going drink alone in your room, again? Dude, this is going to be fun, its been a long time we've been in the pub, so let's go," Jimin says in excitement, as always.

"No- I-I'm...my head hurts," Taehyung said, taking out his cassette player and headphones, putting it on his ear and walk away.

Jimin and Kihyun just looked at him confusedly, Taehyung was odd sometimes, he often drinks when he feels like to, smoke when his chest doesn't want to breath, and go to the pub and have some fun to forget things running in his mind. But this time he refused, he is kind of making things up with his parents who threatened him that they will cut his allowance off if he didn't change after all the shits he did before. So he has to act like he had changed and show it to his parents.

Taehyung walks slowly, listening some songs of Sechs Kies. He stops by the street and leaned on the wall, taking out a cigarette and lighter, putting the cigarette between his lips and lit it, inhaling the toxic smoke in to his lungs.

It's already afternoon, the sun rays became orange, basically lighter to the skin to bare, and somehow cold on his skin. Probably the classes were already done.

As the students walks going back to their home, Taehyung thinks if he could be happy whenever he came home, at this moment, he thought, why people could show their happiness, their vulnerability, how could they be happy in this world. For him, happiness is just temporary, it will go away, it is something almost a achievement, something tangible, something people like him can't afford, so he used to be that, filling himself in sorrow.

He heard a chattering group walking passed him, when he noticed a boy, giggling, he's glowing, have a petite body, hair curls, skin so white, his face is angelic, doe eyes, his smiles could melt your heart. Taehyung caught his attention, he just stare at the boy walking away.

He really looks familiar to him and he realized that the boy is his classmate. But he has never landed his eyes to the boy but maybe he just don't usually care about his classmates but perhaps, he regret not looking at this boy.