Can You Handle a Challenge Mr. Alpha?

Blame It On Me, Or Should I Say You?

Chp. 26- Blame It On Me, Or Should I Say You?

I didn't go to the funeral they were holding for Dimitri the next day. I couldn't.  Which is why I was trying to comfort a very broken Jenn in the Luna's Chamber. She kept sobbing and wailing about how much she hated life and how she missed Dimitri.

I felt uncomfortable,  but I also felt sad about his death. I wonder how Scott was feeling about the loss of his friend. Did he also feel his loss?

All I wanted to do right now was be next to Scott, I couldn't help but think that if he were here he'd make everything better.

"I mean, how could the moon goddess do this to me?" She howled. 

"No Jenn, it's not you. These things happen, no one can prevent death. It's inevitable," I tried to comfot her and patt her hair lightly.

She nodded. We'd been going like this for the past hour. She would say something depressing and I would try to comfort  her. All I said I would say profunctorly.

Jennifer stood up from where her head laid on my lap, suddenly. I turned to look at her surprise. She paced down the room back and forth. I waited patiently for her to say something. It was never good to pressure a werewolf who was going through sometging this emotionally fragile. Or when they're on their period.

"Oh my god!" She yelled as she clutched her hair and crouched down on the floor. "All this time I've been blaming the wrong person. It's my falut that all of this happened!"

I frowned. What's wrong with her? It wasn't her fucking fault someon decided to go all cannibalistic and bite her mate.  

Standing up from the bed I walked over to her. "Jennifer it wasn't your fault! How many fucking times do I need to tell you that? You didn't know he was going to die! None of us knew someone would!" It was true. No one was a genie, we didn't know when someone would pass away.

I bent down next to Jenn and hugged her. She nodded. We stayed like that for a coyple of minutes.

"You're right.  It's not my fault," she whispered. "IT'S YOURS!"

I stood up like she had punched me. What was going on? Did she honestly say it was my fault? 

She was right. All of this was my fault. If I hadn't gone to the The Black Raven Pack, if I had left Brandon, if I had killed Jesse when I had the chance, then none of this would be happening.  She was right, and I hated he for being right. However, it wasn't my fault that Dimitri died. How could I have known he would?  I couldn't have. But deep deep down I was selfishly thinking that if someone did die, it wasn't someone from my inner circle of friends. That made me  feel all that much worse. Because if someone died. There was a 75%  chance that they would be from Scott's,  my sister's or my aunt's pack.

I looked back down at my present problem right now. Jenn was looking at me with a  loathing no one haf ever given me. It made me shiver.

"Jenn, I-" I didn't know how to feel. I had never been acussed with murder. Even when I did plan the attack against Scott's mother, I hadn't know it was my mate's mother I was startegizing an invasion attack for.

Jenn stood up slowly and walked towards me with purpose. I backed away from her as I helpless lifted my hands in front of me. 

She nodded as she advanced towards me.  "You know I'm right. You know it and that's why you can't defend yourself, " her voicr held so much promise in it and I wad afarid for my health.

My back hit the wall and I had no where to protect myself. I looked back around the room to try and find an escape, but the door was on the opposite end of the wall.

I mentally cursed myself.  I looked back at jenn who now stood  less than two feet away from me. Her eyes were as black as the feathers of a raven. 

I had no doubt that her wolf had convinced her that I was the cause of all of this. That it was my fault that Dimitri had died, so now, she was going to  make me have the same fate as him. 

"Jennifer," I pleaded. "I-I couldn't have known that thiss was going to happen."

Jennifer nodded. "You knew someone would die. You just expected it would be Jesse, the. Alpha or any other members of the Black Raven Pack ." How did she know all these things?   It was like she was my inner voice. "But now,  you can die, " she paused and when she continued her voice cracked.  "With Dimitri."

She sauntered over to me with a smile on her face. It was the most pschicopathic smile I have ever seen in 16 years of living.

There were many possibilities as to what I can do now.  I could hurt Jenn or I could let her hurt me. Now, I don't know about you, but in any other situation the later would've sounded more comforting. But, this was Jenn we were talking about and she was my friend.