It's been 8 days now. The pain is intolerable. I don't eat or hunt. I just lay here, staring at the wall. Sometimes, I drift off. Dean is worried. He thinks I'm depressed. He says that sometimes depression comes with being a hunter, but I say depression comes when you're in the business of dying. And so, I lay here.
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It's been 8 weeks now. Dean still thinks I'm depressed. But now, I'm hunting again. It's quite exhilarating, hunting when you're mad. I'm mad at the world, and him for leaving me here alone in it. But mostly, mad at myself for being mad at him and the world. Why can't I just smile and look happily at the good times? No, someone needs to pay. And every time I face a monster or demon, it's them who have a debt. I will find the demon son of a gun who is responsible, and they will pay.
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It's been 8 months now. I haven't talked to Dean in 3 months. But I've done it, all this work has paid off. I've found him. I interrogate him for a while but he gives me nothing but gory details about killing him. And then, it all goes down. Demon breaks free of the trap and we fight. It's not a very long fight, but not short. I smoked the black eyed son of a gun, of course. However, not before he took a stab at me, right in my side. This is the kinda wound he would've sown up for me. I call Dean and tell him that I'm sorry for it all but mostly I'm sorry I've failed him. Then, I lay down, outside, on the grass. I've lost all my fight. I have nothing else left to fight for. Too much blood has been lost, too late to change my mind even if I wanted to. But I don't. I welcome it as it comes, the stars, a beautiful last picture, but not a last memory. I see us all, Dean, me, him, we are in the Impala, music blaring, bickering about something pointless. Oh how times have changed. Yet, I smile, because this is my last memory and it's my happiest. I stare at the scene playing in the stars, or maybe in my mind, I'm not sure. I am only sure of the warmth spreading through me. I can't help but smile. And then, nothingness.
A/N
Wellll hey hey hey. Random little thing written in like 5 mins bc I've been very uninspired I've decided to start writing whenever I feel a very strong emotion for no apparent reason. So yeah. Don't hate me bc this is bad! i just needed to get this out of my system. Another update soon! love y'all! -Bubbles
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Supernatural One Shots
FanfictionI'm Ace and I'm a huge Supernatural fan so I will be writing some Supernatural one shots and some I'll find on tumblr and post. So enjoy!!! Feel free to post suggestions in the comments!
