Dance with me, Celestine

Prologue

As I look into the school grounds waiting for the said activity, I can't help but to overthink about the thing I did for him. Call me selfish but all I want is only the best for him.

I let him go. I didn't fight.

I lose him. I hurt him.

I look above the tree behind me and let a big sigh.

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"Love..." he called me.

"Please Celestine, let's talk about this, please don't do this" he said. I kept quiet as I hold back my tears. I look into him and that's the time he grabbed me to him. He hugged me like there's no tomorrow.

I don't want to cry. I dont want to change my decisions. I want to stand by it.

"Alias, I'm tired of this. Please let's stop." I said between in his arms.

He sighed heavily. I know this is hard for him, for the both of us.

But I'm doing this for him. I let go of the hug. I can see the tiredness in his eyes.

"Why are you doing this to me Celestine? Why love?" he asked me. I can see tears in his eyes.

Oh my Alias, please don't do this to me. please don't make it hard for me.

I turned my back to him.

"Why Celestine!?" he shouted.

'It's because I love you' I said in my mind.

"It's because I love someone already Alias, I love someone" I said back. I almost run after I said those. Until I heard him laugh.

A fake laugh from my love.

"Oh really? Really Celestine?" he said unbelievable. "Yes" I whispered.

I turned my back just to see him walking away from me. I can't clearly see him because of this fvcking tears.

"If you leave me, please don't ever show yourself to me anymore " he said until I can't see him anymore.

I hurt him. I hurt my Alias.

I sobbed and lost myself in tears.

"I'm sorry" I said. "Sana nga, sana nga Alias" I whispered.

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Hindi ko na namalayang napapaluha na ako. Pinunasan ko yung luha ko bago tumayo.

Dumeretso ako sa CR. I change my clothes for my performance later.

As I wander my eyes into this gymnasium and hear the cheers and claps of everyone inside I can't myself to wish na sana nandito siya. I smiled bitterly.

I walk into the center. I opened my arms, did my routine. Balance, Focus, and Strength. That's my foundation in dancing.  But I lost it until I met his cold and blank eyes. I want to cry, I want to run away. He's looking to me with those eyes without adoration anymore. I smiled, I think you really moved on my Alias. But I'm sorry because...

"It's still you Love, it's still you Alias for those 4 fvcking years" I whisphered.