Last night I told my friend about you. She seemed skeptical because of the distance. She told me you're too far to ever truly be happy. Ultimately, I know that she's trying to look out for me by telling me what could be harsh reality. But am I supposed to find comfort in that? Because I don't.
Is she referring to the physical aspect of this relationship? I know for a fact that we have the emotional components down. A simple text from you can instantly change my mood. You hold the power to make me smile, even if you're nearly a thirty hour plane ride away. I know my mood shouldn't rely on your presence, but you've become such a big part of me within this short time of knowing each other.
I don't want to make any assumptions, because I do not fully know what it's like to be in a long distance relationship. This is all new to me, besides the fact that I have an internet friend of nearly four years now. We're in the same situation, she's basically on the other side of the world. In that instance I understand the circumstance of having an emotional connection without the physical connection. I know that in a relationship things are different. However, what's physical touch if you don't connect with that person on the inside? Someone that lives down the street might not make me as happy as you do. Even if that means sacrificing the ease of a regular relationship.
No one in my life will be able to see this. They don't know you how I do. They see you as a picture on a screen, they don't see you as a 'real' person. I'm afraid this won't change unless they were to meet you. Even then, they might not fully understand. No one will ever know the connection we had that week and even after. No matter how much or little we tell people about us, they will never be able to comprehend us.
However, I'd be lying if I said I didn't question the reality of things. Could we ever make it work? What will people say? What will they think? What if it's all just a silly fantasy? Again, I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to try.
You haven't given me any reason to believe you're not loyal, but with the distance, I'd be crazy not to think about this. I'm alright without the physical aspect, I'm more of an emotional connection person anyways (Although, I do miss your hugs). I'm just not sure how you'd feel about that. Are you willing to give up virtually everything you've ever associated with a relationship for someone across the world?
