~The Night Before~
Graser's pov
'Ugly, stupid, weird, nerd, idiot'
Those words swirled around in my head.
"What's wrong with me?" I asked myself.
"You're just a stupid and ugly robot," I said to myself starting to cry.
"You don't deserve to live, no one likes you," I thought.
"NO!" I yelled, covering my face.
"Jordan cares about me, he's my best friend, my only true friend," I convince myself.
I need to talk to him.
I pick up my phone, type in his number, and press the phone agaist my ear.
"C'mon, pickup," I whisper.
No answer.
I start to worry. "Does he hate me too?" I think.
I call again, nothing.
And again, and again, nothing, no one.
I have no one.
I start crying.
I wipe my eyes. "C'mon Graser," I say.
The thoughts pour back into my head.
'Ugly, stupid, weird, nerd, idiot'
I can't take it!
I slowly stand up from laying on my bed, I walk to my bathroom across the hall.
As I walk through the door I my cat walks through my legs, I pick him up and carefully and place him away from me.
I lock the door. I open the closet, I see the raser blade.
I take it and sit on the cold bathroom floor.
I stare at my wrist, it's previous scars stare back at me.
I place the blade on my wrist, the cold metal pericing through my skin.
I slide the blade to the left, pushing harder, it gets deep.
The blood spills out, dripping down my arm and landing on the tile.
I feel a shrap pain but I don't mind it.
I continue with more, getting deeper and deeper. My tears land in my cuts causing them to burn.
I stand up, turn on the tap, I rinse the blade under the cold water.
My blood still dripping down.
I clean the cuts and return to my bedroom.
I have stopped crying, I have no more emotion, I simply lay on my bed and sleep.
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Wow... What a sad chapter...
Brb crying
