Live, love, laugh and die. This is just life! Part 2.

It's just me (with no words left to say)

it was me always the one hurt,

I knew then I would never love again.

I have decided now that I will be waiting,

for death to come and take over,

I will not do anything to stop it!

I am barely hanging on right now.

Life isn’t going to be the same anymore.

I am falling to pieces!!!

This time and forever!!!

I should have kept on fighting for you;

I never should of let you go away!!

Tell me who I am to you right now!

I know I need you now more than ever!!

You are the only reason I was staying alive.

I was never going to find some help,

I guess here is the  reason why.

I have lost you now because of this,

and it’s just making it worse.

I am nothing anymore!!

I guess I am going to have to live on,

because he is out there somewhere.

I guess I am going to have to become,

someone who is not invisible anymore.

I am still that girl who is invisible,

but it is time to say goodbye to that,

I don’t want to be that girl anymore.

I am going to build my life up again,

forget about that one word we thought.

I am not going to do it…… Suicide!!!

It’s just me (with no words to say)                    

I am the girl you see,

hiding in the corner, so far away from earth.

I am that little thing you see,

just a shadow of an unknown girl.

I am that one that has been lost a thousand times,

hidden in many other different dimensions.

I am the empty broken hearted girl,

the one no-one notices around anymore,

because she doesn’t want to speak,

she doesn’t have any words left to say.

The shadows follow her around,

when she leaves her darkened cold corner.

The candle that once burned brightly

has slowly burned away into nothingness.

Do you know what it’s like…?

To be hurt? To be lost?

To be on the verge of breaking down?

This is how I feel, that girl who is forgotten.

This is my long sad story; no-one wants to know

I just need to let it out because I needed you.

I am the vacant empty girl!

I am the one that you’se have forgotten!

I am the ghost of a girl you knew well!

I am the spirit that is slowly crumbling!

You have forgotten me again,

after a thousand promises too not.

You have walked away again,

after all those lies of loving me!

You have loosened your grip on me,

after promising to keep me safe with you.

I was nearly lost for good;

it was just the other day,

which I was almost lost to death.

This was what those feelings have led too….

I know that you had finally understood me,

but it was all lost again after one word.

That word which I will never say,

because I know how much it hurts,

hurts to get to grips with the situation,

and move on from what you said.

I can’t even speak of the pain,

you always comforted me and I miss all that.

I can’t even begin to think about my life,

because you were the reason for my existence.

I was drowning in my own inflicted pain,

that was until you came into my life!

Who knew this would of happen??

Happened to a lost and lonely girl.

I didn’t see this future happening,

it’s too depressing even for the devils of hell.

I found out the end as usual,

it was me always the one hurt,

I knew then I would never love again.

I have decided now that I will be waiting,

for death to come and take over,

I will not do anything to stop it!

I am barely hanging on right now.

Life isn’t going to be the same anymore.

I am falling to pieces!!!

This time and forever!!!

I should have kept on fighting for you;

I never should of let you go away!!

Tell me who I am to you right now!

I know I need you now more than ever!!

You are the only reason I was staying alive.

I was never going to find some help,

I guess here is the  reason why.

I have lost you now because of this,

and it’s just making it worse.

I am nothing anymore!!

I guess I am going to have to live on,

because he is out there somewhere.

I guess I am going to have to become,

someone who is not invisible anymore.

I am still that girl who is invisible,

but it is time to say goodbye to that,

I don’t want to be that girl anymore.

I am going to build my life up again,

forget about that one word we thought.

I am not going to do it…… Suicide!!!