Broken Promises

Real Eyes Realize Real Lies

Two months have past since I had my baby, Zaria, and it hasn't been as hard as I thought. Jay, hasn't been who he said he was going to be but that's typical Jay. I don't even know why I let him fool me into thinking he'd actually grown up a little. Haha! Silly me. He makes me hurt so bad. & the worst part about it is he doesn't even see the wrong he does. So I mean, I'm just, done with it. He can be around for Zaria, but me and

Jay can't be together. It's too much stress on me and I'm tired of crying myself to sleep over him.

Currently I am not working. I am looking at job applications & Lyric does not think I should work right now, she thinks I should stay at home with Zaria and she can just work. That's really nice, and I appreciate her for that, but no. That's not happening.

Jordan and Lyric are finally dating. Praise god, because they be all down each other's throats every time I see those two! They can't get enough! It's disgusting.

It was a hot saturday morning, & I was feeling real happy. I don't know why but I just woke up feeling good.

" You wanna get out today? " I asked Lyric as I tried waking her up

" I don't really feel like it. " Lyric groaned

" Well, I am getting out & Zaria is sleep, can I leave her here or I need to take her? " I asked

" You can leave her. "

I was kinda happy she said I could leave her. I needed a little day to myself so I could spoil myself.

I went into my room and just stared into my closet. What to wear? What to wear?

I couldn't really decide so I pulled out my ripped, high wasted pants, a plain white tank top, and my concords. So plain jane today.

I didn't feel like recurling my hair so I just pulled it all up into a high pony tail & left out the house. First stop, nail shop.

I went to my absolute favorite nail place. I got me a manicure & pedicure, because I needed it so badly!

On my way out, guess who I see sitting on my car waiting on me? Jay. Oh how disgusted I was to see him.

" First of all, get up off my car. " I said with attitude as I walked to my car door

" Dangggg Khy. Where all this attitude coming from? " Jay chuckles

" Boy.. " I rolled my eyes as I got in my car

" Naw, like forreal. " Jay caught my door before I could close it. " Can we just talk? Like some normal ass people, forreal. "

" Jay. I'm not bout to give you the time of day. You know why? Cause you dumb. You got a lot of growing up to do and I ain't bout to sit around & wait on you to grow up. I got a baby now. I can't be wasting my time on nobody else but my baby. okay? is it clear now, or you still a little lost? " I said annoyed

" Wasting time? So I'm a waste of time? Forreal Khyrah? Don't do that shit cause you know I love you and you just want a fucking reason to argue with me and make me mad. And who got a lot of growing up to do!? " Jay yelled at me

" You! Yo dumb ass. You still fucking around like a dumb ass little boy. Yes, I went through that raggedy ass phone of yours & I saw it all. & I'm looking for reasons to argue!? You got me fucked up Jay, you know you put me through some fucked up shit and you did NOT fucking care! So just fucking move. I'm leaving. " I yelled back and slammed my car door.

" I shouldn't have got yo ass pregnant. Swear to god, man. " Jay said back as he walked off

" You sholl shouldn't have! You pathetic as fuck. But it's cool. My baby well taken care of. With or without you. Just don't come crawling back when shit don't work out how you hope! " I yelled as I drove off as my eyes filled with tears and my heart filled with anger.

I'm so tired of him. I'm glad I got that all off my chest. Boys ain't shit. Honestly. I should've kept my innocence. As much as I love my Zaria, I should've thought twice about getting pregnant.