Dark memories

Chapter1

Evelina POV

''I'm not going to do anything like that ever again !''I assured her .

''I trust that you are telling the truth . I know you have been through a lot and you endured a lot of pain that you did not deserve .''She said understanding.

''Thank you .''

''No problem, however I have to let you know that I am not the one that is responsible for this ''

I looked at her in shock and said with a surprised voice "What do you mean it wasn't you ?If it wasn't you then how , why ,who?''I asked confused 

''He did . He signed a document that he agrees that you can be free. He tried doing this document for a long time , but it wasn't in his power at the time , but now it is and he took this decision for your benefit .''She explained .

My heart started betting so fast when I heard what he has just done ..I don't get it .Why .. why would he do this ?I remember he tried visiting me and in that moment I needed the whole power in me to resist the desire to see him or to shout in his face to make him realise how broken and destroyed I am and all because of him , but I didn't . I couldn't .. I wasn't strong enough to see him just stand there in front of me and not give a fuck about me .I just couldn't .

''Here's the document ''

I take it slowly and I read the writing black on white , when a sentence jumps into my sight .

''I have to go back to live in London and I have to finish university ?Huh? You know what that's not that bad at least I'm out of here ''

''Do you think you're going to see him ?''

''Most probably ,I bet that's what he wants .To throw it in my face that I am out because of him , but for fuck sake I wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for him .''

''Take care of yourself.''

''I will, thank you for everything ''

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After a few long and boring hours the plane landed.I got off and I see Stefan and Tony , they were wearing their usual costum for work .They handed me  the keys of my beloved car .A black Lamborghini with smokey windows that I missed so much. They put the luggage in the back and we left.

While I was driving ,I kept looking left and right to the familiar streets , each of them being anchored with a memory in my mind , some being happy like the ones with my parents and some being painful..

I could feel a deep pain in my chest . Being here , breathing this air , hearing those cars and the kids just walking down the street coming from school still innocent souls that are going to be broken into pieces by this unfair, horrible world that we live in .That destroys everything that's good in us .As good in this world means you're weak , having feelings, caring , loving is just ways that allow people to target you, to exploit you ,to hurt you , to break your spirit .However even after all you have been through ,even if your broken, even if you're alone ,even if you're not perfect . You're going to be something not many are .Strong . 

And for some you can just start all over again, or you can hope everything will be the same when you come out , but really deep inside you , you know the truth ,you know that nothing is as it seems and that people change ,nothing stays the same and true love is nothing like the fairy tales your parents read to you when you're young .True love is just another exposure that you created ,another chance when you have given someone the power to burn your soul and just trust them not to .

I hate myself so much right now .I am disgusted of myself .What kind of person am I?How could I be so blind for so long ?The answer is love .Love makes you blind . It makes all the mistakes and imperfections of the other person invisible and they're just perfect in your eyes.They're just the best person in the world and you love them with all of your heart and yes for a period of time you are happy , really happy ,you feel like the luckiest person in the world . You make plans about the future .You're dreaming of being with them for  the rest of your life until death breaks you apart ,but one day comes and the most unexpected thing happens .Your one and only true love ,or at least that's what I throught kills your parents, without caring how much it will destroy you , or maybe that was just their plan all along ,to annihilate your spirit ,your soul  

The only people in this world you can fully trust is your parents . Most important and caring humans in the world ,they will be the only ones that will always be there for you and that will try to give you unconditioned love .However some parents don't know how to do that .. and they also hurt us as we are most vulnerable around them as we trust and love them.Good or bad you still love them right ? However the only time when you realise how much you actually love them sadly ,Is when they're gone , when you can never hear their warm voices or see their beautiful faces  . I miss that so much and it's all my fault and nothing I say or do will ever bring them back and that throught is killing me .

I felt my head beginning to hurt and drops of water were falling from my eyes .I took a deep breath and pushed the pedal harder . Only the throught that he was still here  and that there is a chance I will see him . I am so scared .Scared of what I am going to feel if I do .

I finally parked my car and entered the house and carried the luggage upstairs .

I sat down on the sofa and decided I needed something to drink. I needed this stupid overthinking to stop . I needed those feelings to go away .

Thank you for reading , sorry for any mistakes.And sorry for the fact that it is a short chapter . Hope you enjoy it .