Migraines

Reoccurring
Constant
Migraines
Dehydration?
Stress?
Or maybe it is just the constant nagging...

Self nagging
You aren't good enough
You're worthless
You're ugly
You're fat

Fat, a word on loop in my mind
A word telling me my PCOS affected body isn't good enough

Good enough?
What is that feeling?
Migraines, take control of my life.
And I never feel good enough
Good enough to do anything
Like brush my hair

Could it be my uncombed hair?
Tied in knots on my head, pulling at my scalp, like harsh words pull at my soul
Ripping the kindness from me

My hair is in knots
and so is my hungry stomach
Deprived of food
Because of anger and loneliness

Sitting alone with a migraine
In the dark

Alone.
Something I feel a lot.
Alone to play with my thoughts
Or are my thoughts playing with me?
Driving me to insanity

Insanity
OCD
List making
Random obsessions
Changing emotions
Bipolar
Out of control
Insomniac
Don't follow through

I never follow through with plans
Because of my migraines
Or is it because of my brain?

My brain
Broken
Never working for me
Pushing me
Pushing me away from reality
Away from myself
Away from loved ones
Isolating me

Asking me to give up
To the Migraines