It all started when.. | Phan ❤

Chapter 4 - Crush?

He looked up to me, as he held my wrist. In his hand. 'Dan?'

'Uh- I -I.' I mumbled. Tears filling my eyes.

'Oh Dan.' Phil whispered. He leaned in to hug me, which it didn't expect at all. I took his hug and squeezed him tight as a let a few tears fall.

'Why?' He mumbled.

Can I tell him I was bullied? He'd ask why, then he'd know I was gay! Phil began taking the bracelets of my wrist, there where quite a few so it would take him some time.

'I was- I was bullied at my old school.' I regretted saying each word. He stopped and looked up at me, confused.

'How could somebody bully somebody as loving and funny and beautiful as you!' He took the final bracelet off and turned my hand to my wrist again. Gasping at the amount of marks flooding my wrist.

He stroked my arm then rest his forehead against it. 'Why?' He breathed.

'I- I'm gay - please don't hurt me I'm sorry!' I curled myself up in a ball as Phil pulled away from me.

'Why would I hurt you?' He mumbled,

'Because I know what you did to Peej?' I replied, preparing for him to basically kill me.

'No- Dan.' He rubbed my back making me look up confused.

'What?' 

'That started because of Tyler ages ago. He came out to me with Tyler next to me and he reacted by being disgusted so I just copied him so he wouldn't hate me. I swear! I regret everything I did to Peej and occasionally do, but if I don't Tyler would hate me...' 

'So you stopped being best friends with Peej because Tyler didn't agree with the fact he was gay..'

'I know its stupid!' Phil looked up to my eyes hopefully, his eyes such a deep blue making me forget we where arguing. 'Just know that I don't like you any less..' 

'Mhmm.' 

'I'm sorry- and I am really sorry to Peej.' He let a tear fall from his eye. 

'D-No don't cry!' I moved closer to him, hugging him in the awkward way we sat. 

'This isn't meant to be able me, we need to talk about this!' He wiped a tear away before pointing at my wrist.

'Please- never do it again.. Dan.'

I didn't respond. 

'Dan- you are so beautiful and you have no reason to do something like this to yourself. You are worth so much more than a razor in your arm!' 

'Thankyou.' I mumbled interupted by a knock on the door. 

'Boys-' She knocked before walking in, I felt awkward sitting there in just my boxers, but I have a jumper lying across my lap which helped a bit. 'Phil could lend you a t-shirt I am sure!' She smiled before glaring at Phil. 

'Uh- fine.' He faked moaned as his mum stuck her tounge out at him. 

'Ok- I am going to bed now, don't stay up to late. If you do for some reason go outside be quiet and don't come back at like 7am expecting a full english!' She laughed before skipping off.

'Thanks again for having me!' I shouted as she closed the door. 

'It's our pleasure!' 

I let out a slight giggle as Phil handed me a tie dye blue t-shirt with an illuminati symbol on it.

'Thanks.' I smiled, pulling it over my head. 

We both climbed into Phil's large bed, but Phil seemed to lay more in the middle than on a side making me squish against the wall.