𝑰𝒏𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒐 𝑯𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 | J.JK

34: London Girl

The tone in her voice helped me catch on to how she really felt. I then asked, "Let me guess, can't sleep because of them?"

Finally she looked away from the window and I saw her eyes. Beautiful but red and glistening with tears paired with a face worn down by worry.

"I.......," she said as if she wanted to tell me so much, "I.....dammit! Here I am again oversharing!"

"There's nothing wrong about telling others about how you feel," I said to comfort her but she shook her head and said, "Ugh.....it's just that.....it's just that most of my life I've been told to act a certain way and just shut up because apparently I have a foul mouth."

"You do have a foul mouth," I teased, "You probably know all the curse words by heart."

A tiny smile grew on her lips but she sighed almost immediately then said, "That's besides the point.....it's just that now I'm able to tell people how I really feel, I can't help but tell a lot out of fear that I'll get shut down the next time.....almost like a-."

"Like a defense mechanism," I answered for her and she nodded.

"Well....but I don't think you'd really understand, aside from heartbreak, you  don't really got much going on for you.....golden boy," she teased and I rolled my eyes and said, "That was a low blow Kyong Haewon and you know it."

"Oh hush, you like it when I tease you, reminds you of the old days......golden boy," she teased again and I couldn't help but sigh and shake my head.

"Oh god, please stop using that nickname....the nostalgia is too much for me," I pleaded and she teased again, "What? Is the fact that I wasn't one of your fangirls back then still bruising your ego."

She then dramatically batted her eyelashes and did a horrible rendition of a typical aegyo look then said in a high pitched but shrill voice, "Jungkook Oppa~."

"Oh god please stop, that's going to scar me for the rest of my life," I said and she laughed at my disgust.

"And for the record I'm glad you weren't one of my fangirls because I hate being called Oppa," I explained then I decided to tease her by saying, "Besides.....even if you weren't my fangirl.....you already liked me anyways."

"Don't push your luck Jeon Jungkook, it's not like we would've been a thing," she taunted and I couldn't help but say, "Yeah right, we would've been a thing if you hadn't just.......left."

The once light-hearted mood turned dark when a wave of realization hit both of us.

No matter how much we tried, the things that we did to hurt each other would always come up.

But I'm not about to give up. She's finally talking to me like a normal person and I'm going to make sure it stays that way.

"Hey...hey...it's all in the past now alright......I'm glad that you found your footing now Haewon......it's been nice seeing you get settled down," I said but then right after, I mindlessly muttered, "Although it would've been nice if I was the one you were settling down with."

Somehow, even when the words felt like a whisper to me, she heard them....and the expression in her eyes showed how emotional it made her.

Her eyes softened as she said, "Jungkook....we can't say that anymore....we've grown past that....we've moved on from that."

How she said those words spoke volumes to me. She was unsure and so was I.

I didn't hesitate to say, "Have we though? Have we moved past what we had?"

She shook her head as if to dismiss my hopes and said, "Jungkook....it's better if we left it in the past."

"Is it even the past if the feelings are still present?," I challenged and Haewon grew quiet and the look on her face showed that she regretted having a conversation with me.

I decided to change the topic to salvage whatever this was, "I....I'm sorry, can we just move on from the topic....umm...how about you tell me about what it was like living in London back then."

Her eyes lit up as if it was a question she had hoped somebody would ask and she immediately said, "Besides the obvious reasons why I was in London.....living there was amazing."

I nodded to gesture her to keep on going and she smiled then said, "Gosh! I can't wait to get my hands on some good ol' fish and chips and ooooh~ I definitely want to get some Sticky Toffee pudding again.....ahhh! There's so much things I love about the place!"

"Let me guess you also got to add to your arsenal of profanities," I teased and she chuckled then said, "Oooh yes!  Obviously I don't curse in front of my son but that doesn't stop me from mentally cursing."

"But besides that, I was also really fascinated about the royalty, the Buckingham palace just looks so grand and well....the soldiers always wore these ridiculous fur hats that makes them look funny rather than intimidating," she said as she went on and on with a bright smile on her face.

It was good to see her smile. It seems like she needed a little distraction from how heavy things have been.

And before we knew it, we landed on tarmac and arrived in London.