kik → a.i ⋆ c.h

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     "Well, from what I know about them, they're not the type of people to just block you out of their lives. You can talk to them." Arzaylea smiles. "You can fix this."

     "Maybe with Calum, yeah." Luke shrugs. "But I don't need to talk to Ashton. It's better if we stay away from each other, and Michael probably won't talk to me."

     "You can try."

     "I'm also very scared to do that."

     "I know." Arzaylea sighs. "But sometimes you have to just get it over with. Easier said than done, obviously, but I know if you want something bad enough you can do it."

     "Yeah." Luke says. "We should- you need to get some rest."

     "You do too. Don't act like I can't see how exhausted and slightly drunk you are." Arzaylea states.

     "Can you stay here?" Luke asks quietly.

     "Of course." Arzaylea smiles.

     The pair lay down, Luke wrapping his arm around Arzaylea's waist lightly as he rests his head against her chest. "Thank you."

     "I know you don't really trust me, but if you ever need me I'm here, okay?" Arzaylea runs her hand through Luke's hair.

     "Okay." Luke smiles.

     Arzaylea plays with Luke's hair until she's sure he's asleep, before she grabs her phone. She's angry at almost everything.

arzay: just thought i would let you know, luke had a mental breakdown tonight and he thinks you hate him

calumhizzle: what?
calumhizzle: you can't possibly be blaming me for this

arzay: i'm... not?.??.?
arzay: why do all of you think i'm the wicked witch of the west
arzay: i'm not blaming anyone
arzay: i don't care whose fault it is, i just care that i found him sitting on the floor of his shower and he was sobbing and the water was on high and i'm still wondering how the fuck he sat under that water for so long since i hurt my hand just touching the water for like half a second

calumhizzle: oh my god
calumhizzle: how is he now?
calumhizzle: do i need to go over there?

arzay: it's fine, i'm still here
arzay: he's asleep now
arzay: i got him out of the shower and distracted him with dinner for a little bit

calumhizzle: okay
calumhizzle: so why was he freaking out?

arzay: he basically told me he ruined all of his relationships and destroyed everything and he's convinced you, michael, and ashton all hate him

calumhizzle: oh

arzay: i'm so fucking scared for him
arzay: after i got him out of the shower he sat on his bed and i was grabbing one of his shirts and he told me he thinks he's gonna kill himself
arzay: and he's such a mess
arzay: it's heartbreaking
arzay: he's barely eating and his eyes are bloodshot constantly and all he does is drink
arzay: i have no idea what the fuck i'm supposed to do here

calumhizzle: you can't really do anything right now but make sure he doesn't kill himself
calumhizzle: just be there
calumhizzle: i'll call him tomorrow

arzay: okay
arzay: and what about after?
arzay: what do i do once he's recovered from this and there's this constant, lingering chance that he's going to lose it again
arzay: because i can't take care of him, and myself, and my kids without any help