Forbidden Affair (Completed) [R-18]

26 : Ensnare

Ensnare - to catch a person in a trap or in a place from which there is no escape

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Sabina

The freedom I've chosen is the freedom I am captive to my own self.

If time accuses me of what I have done then I am paying for it. With no connection of him, I stood serious and loyal to my promise. I've never had any conversation with him for the last three months. It was hard without him. The pain of loosing him is more than too much for me to even bare and describe. The only person I tend to trust with me now is Grasha. With just books on top of my table, my goal here is just plain education.

Gigs

Nawawalan ako ng gana habang nakikita ko kung papaano halikan ni Captain si Liana. The bar is full of sin. It looks like hell actually. And I approve of that. Tangina hindi lang si Liana ang hinalikan ni Captain ngayong gabi halos nakakarami na siya ng babaeng kasayaw at kahalikan.

Kasabay ng pag-alis ni Kapitana ang siyang biglaang pag-iba ng takbo ng mundo at ihip ng hangin. The captain we used to laughed at before because of being too loyal to a single girl became the oppsite of who he was before.

Tangina ni hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari sa grupo namin ngayon. Ako lang ba talaga ang may utak sa aming lahat. Even Kiefer is so damn wasted in the dance floor. But unlike Miguel atleast his mind is still intact. You know what I mean. Hindi naman sila ganito dati ah. Parang ang tanging may isip lang ngayon ay kami ni Kyle. Shanon too is in the dance floor taking all the time in the world. Parang napagkaitan ng babae ang mokong.

But what really is scarring me is the way Captain acts now. He seems to be living but without a life. The way he kisses Liana, fuck! Halos kainin na niya ang mukha ni Liana.

And Liana is liking it. Tangina, matapos niyang halikan ang ibang babae tinanggap parin ni Liana ang halik sa kanya ni Captain. That Jaguar is out of his mind. That's not how he treats women.

The only thing that keeps me sane is a little chance of hope.

The woman behind Captain's destruction must come home and gather him back.

One year, Kapitana and Grasha has been given a year to study abroad. Three months have past but still no change with Captain's behavior. Every night is total destruction and madness.

Every night I see him crying even with a bottle of beer in his hand.

And every night, he always looks at a single picture on his hand.

Sabina

That woman possess all of him and left nothing for him. Just mere looking at him starring at a single picture dictates everything.

This is insanity and madness. Tangina, ngayon ko lang nakikita ang ganitong pagkabigo at kalungkutan sa mga mata ni Captain.

Liana never left him but he doesn't need her. Tangina kawawa din si Liana sa ginagawa ni Captain. She doesn't let her see what I see. Ni hindi siya umiiyak sa harap niya. He acts like it is all fine infront of her but he cannot hide the tears he contain each day from me. Tangina gabi gabi ko nakikita kung papaano umiyak si Captain. He doesn't even know that I can see it. Darkness surrounds his bedroom. Amoy alak. Amoy sigarilyo. It smells like hell. Fuck!

Shanon

Tanga lang ang hindi makakasabi ng katotohanang sagad sa butong lasing si Captain.

" Hey Captain!" I shouted. Tangina tumingin lang siya sa akin at tumango bago muling nakipaghalikan sa hindi ko kakilalang babae. Bullshit!

" Fuck" Naglakad ako papalapit kay Captain para patigilin siya sa ginagawa sa babae.