Thoughts and Feelings

And Now I Am Here

A/N: This was written by my girl Jen. (Jen15901) So all credit goes to her.

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My footsteps are soft and steady.

I'm not sure I remember that feeling very well.

When was the last time I could honestly say I was okay?

The words sound so unfamiliar in my mouth.

My head is held high as I stare off into the cloudless skies.

The image is clearer now that I have the ability to see it as it is.

I spent so long waiting for a moment much like this one.

And now here I am.

The music in my ears is taking control over me.

I cannot help but to become a part of the song.

The lyrics are spoken like they are directed straight to me.

Every note that hits my ears stirs up something inside me.

The breeze picks up around me, but I am not cold.

It comforts me and keeps me calm.

This is where I've always wanted to be.

And now here I am.

Everything is so still right now.

Nothing is out of place or out of the ordinary.

It seems like a dream or something from a faraway place.

Honestly, I don't know if it's real or not.

What if this is just an illusion?

I worked for so long to make it I where I am now.

It can't be false. I went through all of that.

And now here I am.

It's such a strange feeling.

I'm not sure I'll ever get used to happiness fully.

But maybe that's a good thing.

It means I can never take this for granted.

And that way I can feel happier.

I will never forget the way you helped me.

It seemed impossible not so long ago.

And now here I am.

I know you were so relieved when I said I was okay.

Your eyes shone like gold in the sunlight.

Your smile was the best sight I've seen in forever.

You told me you were proud of me, and that you had faith in me all along.

I didn't believe it at first, but now I understand.

Freedom changes a person, like the weather changes a place.

Nobody but you believed I could do this.

But now here I am.

Words are no longer able to help me.

I'm incapable of describing what's going on anymore.

The euphoria has me like a deer in the headlights.

It's so different, but it's nice to be myself again.

I like being speechless for once.

Only one thing leaves me confused, and that is how I should end this.

So all I'll say, is I was so very faraway.

And now here I am.