A Painful Letter

To Him, From Her

To Him, From her:

My dearest:

Am I ever going to have my chance with you?

Do you really want a girl like me?

Would you love me for me?

See:

These are the questions that I ask myself now,

And I wish to God that I knew the answers.

This Chance, oh the chance to take,

Truly can only be decided by God,

Only by him!

Everything is up to him!

I swear I never expected this:

Walking into the room,

Wondering if you'd glanced in my direction,

Being in pain when you didn't,

And falling head over heels for you.

My mind wouldn't let me have peace,

All I thought about was you.

I didn't know your age, you name,

Anything about you...

I found out more about you,

Realized who you were, asked around,

But the one thing that hurt was:

You already had someone.

A girl, my age, even though you were older.

It made me realize that age was just a number to you.

Love and life go on, apparently,

So you got yourself another girl.

She's beautiful.

She is so blessed to have you.

I'll bet no one has ever hurt you the way she has.

And that fact makes me ache,

Because I know you deserve whoever you love.

All I can say is,

That I swear I'd be there for you.

No matter where I am and no matter what the subject is about,

I am willing to listen to anything that you have to say.

You are amazing in so many ways.

All in all, you are my someone.

To be with,

Or maybe not.

Again, that's Up to God.

But, I can still have a hope. A hope for us,

For a future,

Or simply for you to be happy.

All my best wishes,

~Moriah