it was the summer of 2013. time passed by slowly then. the flies were swarming around the lights by the train station. it was a cool evening. everything was peaceful and i felt loved.
it was the winter of early 2013. i played fantage with my cousin as the new year hit. time passed by slowly then. the snow fell quickly as did the laughter of that night.
it was late summer of 2012. i smiled happily as my mother packed my lunch for the last day of camp. it was a farming styled camp. i liked it very much and was glad to have this opportunity of being one of the few students invited to attend this camp.
it was early summer of 2012. i was excited that school was over for the school year. time passed by fast from then on. i was not excited to learn new vocabulary over the summer. learning the word "because" was hard but the effort paid off.
it was april 20th of 2011, the day that changed my life. i was scared and upset because the feeling of happiness was replaced by the numbness. my source of trust was not there. my heart broke as i boarded. this would be the last time in four years that i will see the people who raised me up to the person i was. my heart broke as i realized the new chapter of my life will be starting now.
as a young girl, i was exposed to too many things to count. i knew the difference between right and wrong but i did not bother to commit to the right path. my life was screwed up and i was scared and lonely.
it was the summer of 2015. i waved goodbye to my father as my mother, sibling and i boarded the plane. i was excited and my stomach felt weird. the plane ride was bumpy as we had connecting flights with a stop. i felt happy as i stepped on the land that i have not stepped on in five years. i saw them at the airport, i was ecstatic. the two months passed by fast. i was able to reconnect with my friends and family but i felt like something was missing. i waved at my family a last goodbye as my sibling, mother and i boarded the plane back. what i did not know was that it would take another three years till i step on the same piece of land.
it was the summer of 2018. i was glad that i was finally able to finally board. all i remembered was reminiscing the memories that i made there. i was glad to be there because i missed them dearly. i did not get the reaction i wanted as i entered the home i used to call home. that summer, i felt lonely and was not happy. it was nice, remembering memories and making them but it was not a great time for my mental health. time passed by fast and i was where i started, numb and confused.
therapy was not what i considered as i first had trouble with my mental health. it was never something i would even consider. in the future, hopefully life looks up for me.
