Dear Dad
I don't even know if I want to call you that anymore, you broke the family leaving me to pick up the pieces. You left us with nothing except arguments, screams and forbidden memories. You were my hero, I saw you as a hero, a role model but all you are to me now is the monster under my bed. Out of sight, but right there. How did it feel when you packed your bags? How did it feel to wave goodbye to us? How did it feel to call me a disappointment, a failure? Because let me tell you something, you ruined my life, our life. I had to learn to cook, hide my feelings, push everything down. I had to fight YOUR battles. Now you break another heart, she still saw you as a hero, HER hero, that is a privilege that you never deserved. As her big BROTHER, I can say that you let her down, broke her heart even if she doesn't show it. I will not allow you to haunt us anymore, you will not be a shadow around the corner, or the voice in my head anymore. I now push you out of my life, you know that you brought this upon yourself, YOU destroyed this family. Mum struggled, so I had to take over a 10 year old did a better job than you just think about that, This is everything that I have been too afraid to say to you, after all I know nothing right? Just a pathetic 10 year old to be pushed around.
Not anymore.
