Change (Hayes Grier)

Chapter 40

Shans POV

After sitting in the bathroom for 2 hours I heard them finally walk away from the door, I stood up and looked in the mirror I looked awful, I cleaned my self up and looked in the cabinet, it was just staring at me Hayes found out about the last ones so I done it in a place he wouldn't think of looking. I pulled my socks down I cut once, twice I ended up with about 7 deep slices across my ankle it stung as I watched the blood drip down, I wiped it up pulling my sock back over them and went downstairs. Everyone was passed out on the floor or on the sofa,

"You finally came out then" I jumped round to see cameron with red puffy eyes he walked up to me slowly making me back against the wall.

"Hayes told us" with that sentence he gripped on my arm pulling up my sleeve showing my previous scars. I didn't say nothing I didn't know what to say, I thought he was going to speak again but instead he pulled my arm up to his lips and kissed every single scar not leaving one out,

"Please don't do it again" he kissed my head and carried my up to my room laying me in the bed Hayes was lied on the floor next to the bed, once cameron put me down he picked Hayes up laying him next to me.

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Phoebes POV

"Owww what the fuck happened last night" I woke up on the floor lied next to Livvy and Johnson my head was killing me I sat up on the sofa next to a passed out matt he looked so peaceful sleeping I stroked his hair as he dribbled in his sleep I miss him, I miss being able to call him mine and lie in his arms while he's like that I smiled at him as he started to shuffle around

"Morning" he looked up at me with a smile

"Morning" he replied in that raspy morning voice of his

"What happened last night I can only remember when sammy came over"

"You had an argument with my ex girlfriend" wait did he say ex girlfriend why do I now feel like a little girl at Christmas WAIT STOP IT PHOEBE YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND

"Oh .. Um how come you broke up"

"I heard what she said to you about not liking you and when she ran out the door I went after her only to see her making out with some dude in the middle of the street so I ended it"

"I'm sorry"

"Don't be it's not your fault" he pulled me into a side hug which ended up with me laying against his chest

"At least Shan had a good birthday"

"Umm well actually" matt hesitated

"Matt?"

"Do you remember what you said to her after the argument with Rachel"

"If I can't remember the argument how am I meant to remember what happened after it"

"You had ago at shan then she ran off upstairs none of us have seen her since" shit what did I say to her

"What did I say if you can remember"

"You said not for her to get involved cause she stuck up for you then you said you didn't need her anymore, you had mahogany and that she's nothing to you" oh great now I'm gonna have that "Sister" of hers on my case

"Actually Morgan left last night"

"Sorry what"

"You thought out loud"

"Oh" I laughed a bit and started blushing I guess matt noticed cause I covered my face

"Don't hide your beautiful". Urg why can't I just kiss him hmm maybe because I Have a boyfriend who's asleep right in front of me, I felt his index finger go under my chin lifting my face up to meet his he brushed a strand of hair behind my ear and leaned in, I just couldn't resist he's so perfect and I miss him I couldn't wait any longer and pulled him in with my hands behind his neck I climbed on top of him nots breaking the kiss so I was straddling him. He broke the kiss for a second

"Maybe we should go upstairs" I looked at a sleeping Toby feeling guilty but nodded. Matt carried me upstairs not breaking the kiss again with my legs wrapped round his waist and arms round his neck. he took me into his an Aaron's room luckily Aaron was downstairs. He kicked the door shut with his foot walking over to the bed lying me down gently he hovered over kissing my lips down my jawline and neck sucking on my sweet spot, I moaned as he did then pulled his shirt of in one swift motion throwing it to the other side of the room. he tugged on the bottom of my dress pulling it of leaving me in my bra and undies, I ripped his shorts of leaving him in boxers as he grinded against me still sucking my neck, I could feel his growing member against my area as he did, he left wet kisses down from my neck to tummy then looked me in the eye for a signal as he gripped his teeth along the top of my pants I nodded and he continued pulling them down not loosing eye contact, once they were off he stripped his boxers down revealing his member that hit him straight in the lower stomach and came on top of me again, he lined up at my entrance then pushed in I put my hand over my mouth to stop the moans from escaping just incase we woke everyone up he thrusted in and out hitting my G spot making it more and more pleasurable, I could feel his thrusts getting sloppier and knew he was close, I couldn't keep it in no more and realised my juices all over him as he did into me, he pulled away throwing a blanket over us for me to cuddle into his chest

" I still love you phoebe I always did and never stopped and it kills me to see you with another guy"

I didn't know what to say I was speechless also coming to realisation that I just cheated on my boyfriend with my ex Urg it annoys me to say that when it's matt and totally forgetting that Shan thinks I hate her guys I really screwed up this time, I looked at the clock on the wall 9:20am i laid in his arms just staring at the ceiling enjoying each other's company, all that I could think of now was 'what do i do now'