Once again...Life goes on

Accidents...

Alec looked at me confused; sad and well kind of disappointed of what Noah did with me,

"Mom, just how could you forgive him,if I were you I would've killed him" He asked me, his eyes locked in mine searching for answers, well sure I sound naive and stupid forgiving the one who had broke my heart, But it's not how I forgave him

"Look sweetheart, I sure hated him and a lot at first, I mean for about 10 years, I hated him more than ever cause I couldn't be the perfect wife for my husband; and that was really bad because he loved me a lot and respected me and the fact that I can't give him the love he deserved; and for that I blamed Noah,

then, my husband died, leaving me and Kate alone; and for that too I blamed Noah

All the bad that happened to my life, I blamed Noah for it

AND THAT MADE ME HATE HIM MORE AND MORE

And then one day; I became so depressed, I was sad, and that was affecting my baby girl she was still ten and I didn't want her to suffer because I was, I decided to take a vacation of my entire life for a day, Kate stayed with my parents, and I went to the lake house my husband gave me for our second anniversary, I sat by the lake and started thinking;

Who's responsible for all this?

Noah?

Well why did I fell in love with him in the first place?

Me

who waited for him and never agreed to meet someone new?

Me

Who believed his love, his words and his fake promises?

Me

Who let his life miserable?

Me

Who has the credit that I am now a well known designer?

Noah

Who was the reason that I married someone who loved me that much and have a beautiful daughter?

Noah

And this is how I realized that Noah was not the reason my life turned miserable, IT WAS ME!

that day I realized that no one is responsible of my happiness BUT ME!

that day I realized that everything in the life happens for some reason, we may not know what it is until later sometimes

But no matter what we have to be happy and never look back or stay sad,

that the life goes on and we have to walk forward and never look back this is why I still love Noah till now, mad at him maybe, but he was the reason I am what I am now and this is why I can never hate him

do you understand me honey?"

"That was really, really great; mom you are great;

you not only forgave him but you made everyone else happy after that, Kate, me everyone, and now I realize that no matter what happens to Kate, I can never forget her and for her I will live;

and no matter what happens you will always be a mother to me"

he leaned forward and hugged me tight

I was happy he came to that conclusion; after all I didn't want to talk about Noah for nothing, I am glad he was a help again.

I talked after that to the doctor he told me that we can return home now since Alec has recovered of his injuries and we can take Kate and the machines with us since her case is still but he promised nothing about her and didn't give me any hope, we agreed that we are returning tomorrow

I walked back to the hotel feeling weird don't know really why;I had pain in my chest, "something is going to be bad" I can feel it, I always feel bad things before they happen, this is what I call the sixth sense, I was walking, lost in my feelings trying to convince myself that everything is going to be good, the pain in my chest was growing bigger and bigger, my hands start shaking and suddenly I smashed smashed someone

"Watch where you are going madam" he said in a calm voice,I looked up at him he was way taller than I am

"I am sorry I didn't mean it I was just lost in my thoughts I am sorry really""It is Ok don't worry" he was familiar for me, the way he talks his voice I swear I know him

"Excuse me madam" he said  "I feel that I know you," he posed

"Jake?" I questioned "Am I right?"

"Yes, I am Jake,"

"You didn't change much Jake, glad to see you; I am Amy" I said shaking his hand

"I was searching for you Amy" he said sadness in his eyes,"I searched for you for so long; I can't believe it after all these years"

"Um, I think I need some explanation" I informed him,

"It's about Noah" he said tears in his eyes The pain in my chest grown bigger and bigger, my heart beats like crazy

"What about him" I muttered

"Not here" he said and took me by the hand to sit somewhere.

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so what do u think jake is going to tell amy?
"what about Noah? "

and after all these years?

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