One Night With My Bestfriend

Kabanata 12

I got back lately kasi alam ko naman na wala na talaga akong babalikan maski sa pamilya ko,  there where so many conflicts about Ashton, hindi ko naman sinasadya siyang iwan lalo na ang mga kaibigan ko.  Hikbi ako ng hikbi hanggang sa dumating ang grab driver ko. 

I never said i like him back though.

But i do.

I looked around the city, i am heartbroken about everything, the beaming lights of the buildings the busy people.

How i wish it could've gone easier , i wish i didnt left.

Months had passed, bumilis masyado ang oras hanggang sa kailangan ko nang mag exam para sa course ko, it will determine if im gonna be fit to be in the Accountancy program.

Sa dami ng ginugol kong oras sa pag aaral, hindi ko na rin napansin si Ashton dahil sa kabusyhan ko, but the gang didnt stop hanging out, they will help me out when i am in need. Patuloy parin ako sa pagiging working student i applied for the scholarship, God is indeed great.

I have to retain everything because the exams are two days away.

The anxiety, the pressure went all over me like a timebomb.

I checked up my phone, i was in the learning commons because it was really comfortable studying here.
Inayos ko ang aking suot na jacket at umupo ng maayos.

Mama
Mara, ang papa mo, inaresto ng mga pulis!. Please come home anak.

Nanlamig ang buo kong katawan, i need to go home but i have exams.

Fuck.

Mabilis kong kinuha ang aking mga gamit  at lumabas sa learning commons, patakbo akong lumabas at nakasalubong si Ashton kasama sila Andrei.

Hinarangan ako kaagad ni Ashton, his eyes keeps on asking what's going on??

I panicked and cried.

"I need to go home Ash!" Tumakbo na ako palabas ng University, he ran after me.

"You have exams Mara!"

"I dont care!" Nilingon ko siya,pumangay ang kanyang mga mata, but his expression remained the same, relaxed and waiting for me to tell him what's the problem.

"I'll go with you!" Mariing sabi niya at umiling iling ako.

"Hindi pwede may finals pa kayo, okay lang ako."

Sumakay ako kaagad sa tricycle para makauwi kaagad sa bahay ni Tita. Hindi ko na siya pinansin, at agad tumaas saaking kwarto im panicking.

What did my dad do?

"Mara anong nang yayari?"

" i need to go home tita, babalik din po ako." I packed my clothes fast and looked at the time.

Hindi ako aabot sa paalis na bus, baka mamayang gabi pa ako makasakay. I deeply sighed i feel so problematic right now, im so stressed, umiyak nalang ako ng umiyak at hindi inimikan si Tita.

Tiningnan ko ang katiting kong pera, this won't do. Napaupo ako saaking kama.

I only have three hundred pesos. I will have to take shifts before i can go home.

"Anak, anjan si Billy sa labas gusto kang kausapin." Tumango nalang ako, i ram downstairs and look for him, i cried when i saw him, i hugged him.

"What should i do? What should i do? What?"

He just hugged me tight and kissed my forehead. I felt him sighing.

"Ihahatid kita sainyo." Akmang tatanggi sana ako pero tinaasan niya ako ng kilay.

"I have business to attend in there anyway Mara, i'll give you a ride. And then we will get back after." Tumango nalang ako sa suggestion niya, makikisakay lang ako.

"I'll get my stuffs."

I got a text from Ashton saying that everything is gonna be alright, i felt the comfort coming from him.

After many hours i got home, nagstay sa hotel si Billy, sa Daet.

Umuwi ako sa tinitirhan na Village ng kapatid ko.

"Ate anong nangyayari?"

She sighed, while tapping her kid.

"Papa has serious problems, with money we all know that, pero ngayon pumalya hindi lang siya nangutang.."

Papa is in jail right now facing charges for embezzlement.

"He went up for some company, iyong naiutang niya, nilagay niya doon para lumago, and he gets money from it time to time, pero hindi naibayad ang pera na inutang niya, hanggang sa nagustuhan niya na iyong field na iyon, he gets alot of assets, than his usual takes doon kami nag tataka."

And then, he makes different accounts, just to put other assets came from the company. I didnt know it was this big.

Hinawakan ko ang mga notes ko, hindi ako makapag concentrate, mama was talking to some lawyers, but papa is really guilty.

"What will people say about our family? That we are a wreck? She got pregnant, anf asawa ko nakulong at si Mara?" Mama looked at me, like he felt like i was going to fall down too.

Mabilis akong nakabalik ng Maynila i felt exhausted and nervous, Exams na. I tried to focus and prayed hard that i should pass this.

"How did it go?" Ashton was around the corner and he went for my hands and intertwined it with his.

I do like his attention.

" It was good not that confident though." I said, i didnt have the time to review after that 3 hour per sub exam, it was two days, and i felt like i didnt give any efforts in it.

Nadala ako sa ibabaoy saakin ng nanay ko kapag ako rin nagkanda kanda leche.

"You'll pass ikaw pa." He winked at me, nagpadala nalang ako kay Ashton.

"It was a good thing that i met you." Mahinang sabi ko sakanya. He smirked and chased my lips for a peck. Nagulat ako doon at nanglaki ang aking mga mata.

"Bat gulat na gulat ka? Hindi lang yan ang gagawin ko saiyo, my mind went overboard when the last time i thinked about you." Ngumisi siya at kinurot ko kaagad iyong pisnge niya!

"Gago ka ba first kiss ko yon!" Tiningnan ko siya ng masama and he just smiled wildly. Napaka gago talaga.

"I like that" he winked again.

The results came in a few weeks ago.
Ang passing rate kada subject ay 75 percent. I need to get higher than that.

Gumuho iyong mundo ko, gumuho lahat ng pangarap ko, i wanted to cry infront of Ashton. The Assistant dean told me the result boredly that i didnt passed, i only have an option to shift course.

Ashton was wearing a white shirt maong pants and his converse shoes, he looked liked a GQ model, gusto kong kiligin.

But everything is not okay.

"I didnt passed Ash." Malungkot akong ngumiti. Umigting iyong panga niya paglabas ng Assistant Dean.

"Want me to beat the shit out of her?"
He looked at me straight, kung hindi lang ako mabait baka tumango na ako.

But the thing is i lacked, i was preoccupied with my problems, i wasn't that focused about how will i get my degree and survive college. I felt like this is the end.

Hindi ako pumasa, at ito na nga iyong sinasabi ni mama, i was all on negative too, naramdaman ko na ito. Pero saan ako lulugar? Halos mangiyak na ako, as i read my classmates gc's and say the passed.

Nag kulang ako.

Hindi ko ginalingan.

Parang nawalan ako ng pinag aralan.