Why Must You? (GxG)

Chapter 36

"At an early age, naalala ko pa noon I can't even cry because anng mga kasabayan ko ay College students all I have to do is cope up with them, learn the way they think. Kaya siguro ganon nalang ako ka cold ngayon, walang pakealam sa mga tao."

Napatingin siya bahagya sakin.

"Maam, naisip niyo ba na ang swerte niyo?" She suddenly said.

Napakunot ang noo ko.

"Why would you say that?"

"Ang swerte mo dahil sobrang talino mo, ang yaman mo, may rumerespesto sayo, hindi mo na kailangan pang maghirap basahin at intindihin ang libro dahil sa isang tingin ko lang yata ay kaya mo ng maalala lahat" She said smiling.

"Oh please" I said to her sarcastically, that is all an exaggeration.

Ano ako? May kakayahang makita ko lang ang libro ay maalala ko na lahat?

I also get to read, and fortunately I get fascinated and mabilis na naiintindihan ang mga context kaya siguro ganito.

"Totoo nga!," She said giggling. "Hindi ka kagaya namin na kailangan pang gumastos, basahin ang mga libro halos sampung beses para maalala at maintindihan ang libro, at maghirap ng halos 16 years para makapagtapos tapos iisang diploma lang ang makukuha namon"

"A diploma is worth all your achievements, and hardships. I never ever looked down on 16 years of education Karlie"

"Kaya nga, ang swerte mo" She always insisted that I'm lucky.

I was never lucky.

I was put on a cage and forced feed by my parents to just bloat my head to achieve their unachieve dreams and goals.

I let out a big sigh.

"Iba nga yung Ate mo sayo," Napatnig ang tenga ko.

"Paano mo nasabi?" Napatnig ang tenga ko sa kanya.

"Yung Ate mo napaka simpleng babae, ang daling pakisamahan, marespeto, at ang bait,"

Tangina ka talaga Ate!

Pati ba naman si Karlie at nakukuha niya na ang loob? Jusko! Ano bang meron yang si Ate at parang I get to be compared by her all the time. Nanahimik lang naman ako and tried my best not to be compared.

"Siguro ang close niyo? Sabay ba kayong nag-aral?"

I looked at her seriously.

She was praising my sister! Edi ano ang maisasagot ko sa mga pinagsasabi niya? I don't wanna bad mouth my sister because it is all true!

My sister was beautiful, kind, madaling pakisamahan, at marespeto.

My Ate was awesome.

"No we didn't" I said honestly. "She was in 3rd year high school when I am at my first year as a college student"

"Grabe! Ang galing mo talaga no?" She said praising me.

"Ako? Magaling?"

Bwesit! Nakakadiri na talaga tong mga pa humble effect ko. Diyos ko! Ano bang nangyayari sakin?

"Kasi biruin mo, nakapagcollege ka kaagad at nalagpasan mo pa yung Ate mo." She said praising me. I can see that she is so amaze about every achievement I have.

Ngayon ko lang yata naramdaman ang fulfillment sa buhay ko.

"Yes I can see that," I said to her.

She was so amaze na halos tulala na siyang nakatingin sa mga bituin. Kaya napatawa ako bahagya.

"Ikaw ba? Anong pangarap mo?" I continuosly ask.

"Ang makapunta ng America" Tila nagulat ako. I never heard someone said na pangarap nila ang makapunta sa Amerika, maybe because most of my colleagues, classmates and peers wento to America occasionally.

"Bakit?"

"Kasi nandon na yata lahat." I mean, is that reasonable enough? There's something deeper than that.

"That's possible Karlie. Kung magpupursigi ka lang, makakapunta at makakapunta ka." I said to her.

I never thought she would dream like that

She would dream an American dream.

I never like America at all.

I never get to like the America where I get to forget Callie.

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Hey guys, sorry for the delay.

I've been living in a fucked up life lately. College life is not easy as I thought, it was damn hard! Animal! Lisod kaayo!

Anyways, my chemistry is, ahmm what should I say, about to fall in the fucking london bridge! It was damn hard, I was crying after the exams and then there I realize that "simula pa lang to, pano pa kaya sa susunod na taon o sem"

I am starting to doubt myself, and to feel depress.

I am not like this before, now I am living a dark dungeons together with some poisonous ass scorpions.

Again, sorry.

To be continued..