Beauty Behind My Madness

saying my mind

I write my poems i write some songs I listen to my mind Even when it's killing me inside I lie to some people I lie to myself the most Saying that I'm stronger than them 😞😞😞

I'm just someone too afraid to cry I'm someone who just hides. Stay behind. That tough girl act. No lies. 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

Playing sad songs but I can't let the tears fall no matter how hard I try. It's all a fucking game and I hate the pain.

It's not for me but I feel it. It's like twice what they feel but I don't cry cause I'm too afraid to let the tears fall.

My eyes and face go red but I try not to show emotions. I want to do more than just write my feelings. I want to express them.

I hate being a burden but I'm just a prick who blames everything on her stupidity and her mind.

I'm a creep who doesn't understand the true concept of emotions. I'm a freaking melanchalist who hides everything with a fake smile.

My eyes betrays all my lies. And for the first time in a long while I got two tears out of my broken mind. Just two.

I don't cry like others. I put up an act and it's being too real. I'm slowly turning emotionless. But i..... It's not about me.

ITS ABOUT THE PERSON I CARE ABOUT. FUCK THE FACT I FEEL ALONE! I JUST..... 😐😐😐😐😐I'm just scared. I don't want them sad and I'm loosing my mind here

I don't even understand this. It's like my world is a continuous black space and what lights it up is the smile I'm able to put on people's faces.

I don't know what's wrong. Physical pain is so fucking easy to deal with but this... This is driving me crazy.

I need help.

I need....... Help. 😶😶😶😶