{Tmnt 2012-mikey Depression}Please stop pushing me to the edge

Part 4

I sat in my room and I was very sad, nobody among them appreciated me as if I were not their brother.

Hahahah I started to feel like I'm the one who will regret if I kill myself not them...
I am useless to anyone and especially to my family ......Really what will benefit them from remaining around me?I'm nothing I'm nobody ......It's better to leave from here, if i stay with them more than this I will kill them....I will leave tomorrow after they go to patrol ....I will start now firmly my things and I will clean the room who knows they may find a partner or ..... brother better than me to help them..................................yes better than me(I smiled as tears streamed from my eyes)

Time escape:

I woke up at six in the morning before the rest. Rather, I did not sleep last night.

I went and prepared the breakfast and put it on a table and I came back to my room.

I didn't calls them because Donnie woke up this time to drink his coffee so he of course will calls them.

Mikey:I have to sleep a little or everyone will notice that I was tired

The alarm clock was set at 8:55 because at 9:00 am the training started and my father did not like to be late, so some time went by in and i go in a deep sleep.

Donnie pov:
I woke up in the morning and went to the kitchen and my eyes are still closed, and on my way to the kitchen I smelled something delicious and rushed to the kitchen and saw the breakfast prepared, I prepared my coffee and then I called everyone

Raph:ahhh I slept well, oh, thank you for breakfast Don

Donnie:It is not I who prepared it

Raph:then how?

Leo enter the kitchen:
Leo:i think it's Mikey,I knocked on the door of his room but he did not answer and I opened the door and he was asleep, he seemed to have breakfast before us and promised us our share

Raph:Oh ... this is good this time he didn't delay in making it

Leo:That's all ???? we should apologize to him

Donnie:Yes, Leo is right. We hurt his feelings yesterday

Raph:.....alright

Mikey pov:
I saw in the dream a dark place It was very dark There was no light For some reason I felt very comfortable there, I felt I belong to that place, I joined my legs and began to float in darkness No one around me No one with me And no one to scold me or ..... To kill him It was a peaceful and quiet place. I smiled from my heart because I really felt that this was my home, but that peace did not last forever I heard a very disturbing voice and saw a very bright light which made me wake up....

Mikey:dammit I've been very comfortable what woke me up??

I looked around and saw the alarm clock which indicates an 8:58 clock

Mikey:dammit I'll be late
I carried my weapon and rushed to the Dogo and sat in a place

Leo:Mikey me I mean we ....
Before he could say anything more it become ninth and my father beaten his stick on the ground so that calm prevails

Mikey(in his mind): I wonder what Leo wanted to say

Splinter(sorry if i write it wrong): Today we will learn about meditation and this time we apply it practically

Everyone:hai

Time Escape and Splinter explains about meditation and how to deal with external dispersion

Splinter:Now that we have finished the theoretical part, we move to work and remember as soon as you feel that you are far away from what I have described to you.Get out of the state of meditation quickly, otherwise you are suspended in eternal Darkness

Everyone:hai

Mikey(in his mind):hmmm eternal Darkness

Splinter:hajime

We began to close our eyes and follow the way Splinter mentioned in his explanation

Mikey:The place is quiet I really do not hear anything or noise but the place is very enlightening I wish this light disappears ...

As soon as I finished my sentence, the place began to become darker. It was a nice feeling to dive into the darkness and with that my awareness to the outside world disappears.

Mikey:This is better for all, and now I can stay so forever. Anyway, I did not have another place to go to and maybe I will kill myself. But this is better now,Now I will sleep forever where I truly belong to my real home ....

And with that I hugged my feet and shut my eyes and swam in darkness

At that time in Dojo:
Leo pov:

Splinter:hajime

With Splinter word we all closed our eyes, and I meditation as usual and after some time Sensei told us to open our eyes

Splinter: Stop this enough for now

Raph:This is good I will fall asleep shortly

Donnie:NOOOO I was with April and we were having a great time and we were inventing with each other

Leo:aaah okay...what about you Mikey?

Raph:I bet he slept when Sensei say start

Leo:Maybe, Mikey Come on woke up we finished meditation

Mikey:.......

Leo:Mikey Do you hear me?

Mikey:.......

Leo:ahh Mikey?.....

When Leo put his hand on Mikey's shoulder to wake him, he collapsed on the ground

Everyone: Mikey/Michelangelo!!!!

Everyone went away to let splinter looking at Mikey

Splinter:This is bad ..... it seems he is in darkness

Raph:What do you mean with this? Will he stay there forever?

Leo:sensei Is there a solution to this?

Splinter:Yes but....

Raph:but what??!!!!

Splinter:That depends on him to return

Raph:What does this mean ?? !!!

Splinter:He seems to have chosen it himself, I mean he has chosen to go to the dark and if he does not want to go back and stay there he may go into a coma or worse

Donnie:Worse for any degree?

Splinter:.......d.e.a.t.h.....
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Everyone is silent and frozen with fear of hearing the word of death pursue their little brother.