A Muslims Love Journey

Chapter 15: Baby Blues

"I wanna settle down, although I'm young I just wanna settle, her name is Hannah and you can meet her but not now." he said

"why?"

"because she's in Gambia at the moment" he said.

"Ok, where does she come from?" I asked

"She's Half morrocan and half Spanish, and she's so hot, she's like 25 and she really loves me and I love her too" Mustafa said. Aww I never seen this side of Mustafa, after all the crap that happend with him and Aisha, I thought he was a forever player.

"I'm proud of you, and I'd love to meet her Inshallah" Jahmaine said.

"Same here" I said afterwards, Mustafa then smiled at us and then stretched himself out on the chair.

"Where did you meet here?" I asked

"Through the internet" he said

"Don't you think she's a bit older than you" Jahmaine said

"Oh I don't care, I'd marry a 30 year old If she's hot"

we then laughed and looked at Mustafa who had such a cheeky grin on his face.

The only thing I was concerned about Mustafas Presence was my pregnancy, Im pretty sure I would start showing at 3 months, which Is in 3 weeks Inshallah, It really depended on how long he was staying and my body.

Later on that day I was able to do some housework and eat a sandwhich without spitting It out or leaving It on the plate.

I also called my parents and I was so close to telling them but I knew I had to keep It in.

We also recieved very exciting news about Lailas Nikah ceremony which is being held at her grandmas house. She had chose me to be a maid.Thank god I wouldn't be fat on her Nikah.

It was then time for Jahmaine and Mustafa to break there fast, so I prepared them some small food to begin with until they had to go off to the masjid for mahgrib prayers. I prayed at home and at the end of my prayer I touched my tummy and did dua for my unborn baby.

Jahmaine and Mustsfa then came back and I served them some dinner.

"Aren't you going to eat?" Jahmaine asked me.

"I already ate" I said sitting down beside him.

"Can I have some more please?" Mustafa asked finishing his plate. I then smiled because he certainly liked my food and served him more. Mashallah.

"Jahmaine do you want more?" I asked

"No, why don't you have some more" He said.

"I told you, Im not hungry" I said

"but our baby might be" Jahmaine said.

"What baby?" Mustafa asked sarcastically putting his hand on his hips.

"Thanks a lot Jahmaine" I said annoyed.

"Oh damn I'm sorry" he said "but he was gonna find out anyway"

"I kinda already knew" he said "because of the mothercare thing" He added

"What mothercare thing?" Jahmaine asked

"Oh it doesn't matter, Im pregnant okay, and I'm going to be very fat and moody for another 8 months!" I said storming off. I was already annoyed at my moodyness.

I was feeling annoyed so I was able to go and shower to calm myself down as soon as I came out, Jahmaine stood there with a half angry and half concerned look on his face.

"What?" I asked tucking in my towel.

"What was all that?" Jahmaine asked

"What was all what?" I said tying up my hair into a wet bun.

"You know what I'm talking about" he said

"Oh, I do" I said then plugging in my blowdryer. I really just wanted to avoid what Jahmaine was trying to bringing up.

"Im going to be fat?" he said boldly "Is that what this is all about?, why you don't want to eat?" he said

"don't you dare, I was just being real" I said

he then scoffed "so your too worried about yourself, your deciding to put our baby in danger"

"Im not putting our baby in danger" I said.

"Im not fasting, but when I check the cupboards the foods hardly been touched and I've not seen you eat anything for weeks!" he shouted, he then took a deep breath and calmed down.

"talk to me" he said taking my hand.

I then let out a small tear and sat on the bed with him.

It was time he knew my story.

"Ok well just let me finish before you say anything" I began

"I promsie" he said

"When I was younger, like 9th Grade, I wanted to be popular, I had friends but I guess I wanted more. And I started hanging out with a new group, they were three girls called Sarah, Letita and Sharika. They were the most popular girls in school, they all had long dark hair and they were all tall and skinny. So long story short, I felt that the only way for them to proper accept me was If I literally became them. I remember dying my hair black, and going on some crazy diet where I would eat nothing but salad and water, and making myself throw up I got anorexic and I guess now that I'm pregnant I'm going to go super fat and go through that phrase again".

I then looked at Jahmaine waiting for his reaction.

"Obviously I got better, and as soon as I turned 15, I didn't care, I put on loads more weight and looked healthy and started wearing hijab. I guess It was peer pressure" I said

"Wow, I mean, when we first got married and I was able to take a look at your actual body I wouldn't ever think you were anorexic or went through a phase, Amira your perfect the way you are, and obviosly your going to get fat when your pregnant" he said

"Oh, thanks" I said

"No but seriously" he said smiling at me "Look at Ariana, she's had 3 kids and she looks perfectly normal, when your tummy starts to show it's going to be the best thing ever because were going to be closer to becoming parents, plus you could easily lose all the weight after birth, after all your husband is a gym rat",

I then laughed and gave him a kiss.

"I love you" he said

"Love you too, but now I'm hungry" I said

"I'll go serve you some food" he said going off. "And Amira" he said poking his head through the door.

"Yeah"

"Thank god you stopped that throwing up crap because you could of got gastroesophical disease"

"How do you know all that, Doctor Jahmaine" I said smiling

"Because, I'm just naturally intleligent" he said

"Oh I see"

I blowdried my hair and got dressed into some pyjamas,and pink slippers my doctor advised me to wear for when my ankles got swollen. I then threw on a white robe and went to go join Jahmaine downstairs.

"Where's Mustafa?" I asked

"His sleeping" Jahmaine replied "I put him in the guest room"

"Ok, I was thinking of turning that room into the babys room" I said

"Good Idea, Im sure Nura West will love it in there" Jahmaine said, I then laughed.

"Another name?, Seriously"

"I can't help it" he said handing me a bowl of food.

"Thanks" I said.

I looked down at the food and then up at Jahmaine who was literally waiting for me to take the first bite.

This was going to be harder than I imagined.