After Moon

Entry 01

Hello!

I was really excited for this day. I would see him again today! It's been almost 3 months that I haven't seen him. He had been away for their world tour during those months.

He barely contacted me too because they were really busy. I understood. I couldn't blame him for that. I'd be happier if he could rest in between his busy schedules and that would matter more.

I miss him.

I miss him so much that telling him that was an understatement. I even did my best today to stop myself from running to him and wrapping my arms around him.

I'm a bit sad though. It felt like something was off. Whenever he passed by my group, he just had a serious face on. I did try to smile at him and gave him cues but he didn't look.

Did I do something wrong?

His serious face made me more nervous than our performance for the night.

Is something bothering him?

It seemed like he was preoccupied with something. I glanced at him from time to time during different performances but he wasn't as cheerful tonight.

His other members were all smiles. They would even dance and sing with whoever performed on stage. But I didn't get that from him.

Still, I was happy for him.

He performed with one of his idols today. Tonight, he sang one of his favorite songs with one of his favorite artists. That is an achievement for him.

When the news of this collaboration came out, I was excited. I know he was as excited for this performance too. Though, something went wrong with the stage mix, I know he did his best and his group members too. But knowing him, he wasn't really satisfied with it. I could just tell.

But can I also just say how amazing they're last performance was?

I am one very proud fan.

We won 3 awards tonight including 1 daesang. His group won 5 awards including 2 daesangs. I stood up and clapped for them when they were called as the winners for Best Artist of the Year. I think my smile that time was from ear to ear.

I hoped he would glance at me that time so that I could send my congratulations even with just a hint but he didn't.

Actually, deep inside, I wanted to hug him and maybe shower him with kisses to congratulate him. This year was for them. They've been really soaring high.

I just hope I would still be able to reach him. Hmmm...

After the award ceremony, Taehyung~oppa talked to me. Taehyung~oppa has always been a good friend and even our number 1 supporter. He told me he had his wisdom tooth taken out but I shouldn't worry so much.

How can I not worry? He should be in pain.

But why didn't he tell me? I could've taken care of him.

Taehyung~oppa and Jimin~oppa took me to their dressing room so I could see him as they were also worried about him.

As I saw his piercing gaze at me, I know he missed me. I wanted to ask him lots of questions.

Why didn't you tell me? I was really worried.

Did I do something wrong? Please tell me if I did something wrong.

Instead of asking those, my longing for him prevailed. I cupped his cheeks slowly. I could see his cheeks were swollen. I just wanted to show him that I missed him but trying to avoid to hurt his already swollen cheeks.

He tried to smile at me. The smile I had been waiting for the whole night. It melted my heart. He wrapped his arms around me. It was just what I needed at that moment.

I'll just wait for the day that I could talk to him about these, then maybe he could answer those. Maybe, after moon...

~CTY

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AN: This is a work of fiction, based solely from the author's delusional mind. Please do leave a comment and tell me what you think.

Yeah, so this is how the story will go. It's my first time to write in 1st person POV. I hope you'll enjoy this nevertheless.