I stand in the balcony staring at the street, I'm afraid of heights but right now, all what's going inside my mind is thinking about what you might be doing right now.
Are you happy, are you sad, are you with someone, or are you alone, are you standing just as I am in a different place and thinking about something or someone, just like me.
And all of a sudden I see some arms wrapping themselves around my waist, I just don't know if this is reality or not, I feel like I can feel a body, and of course that would not be my mother, is this real? Or is my mind just a little bit stressed?
I turn my head slowly to look who's there, I see your face, I see you, I see the lad I've fallen for, two years ago, am I dreaming? Is this all real?
I just raise my hand to touch your face, I slowly raise them as I see you smile a warm smile, that smile I adored, as soon as my hands almost reach your face you disappear slowly, it's only air around me, I'm all alone.
"Niall." I whisper, there's no replies, there's nobody to reply, I'm not crazy, I never was crazy, what's happening to me, this is just a dream, but I'm wide awake, my eyes are wide opened.
I saw you, I can swear I saw you, I saw you smiling at me and I felt your arms around my waist, I saw and felt every part of these few seconds, it just can't be not real, I know it can't.
I turn my head back to the window and stare even more at the street, I raise my hand in the air and stare at them widely, I don't care for my fears right now, I only care about what just happened, did I really just lose my mind, did I really just go mental.
