nicotine in my lungs
singing, screaming
if i've given you everything i've got,
is there anything left for me?
and is it selfish to say,
"i don't want to give myself away to you today"
because i've spent my whole life trying to fix you
my whole life trying to heal you
trying to love you
i want to grow from this
but my lungs hurt because of you
and cancer may already be spreading
so is it reasonable to say,
"i don't owe anything to you"
can i grow from you?
i want to be someone shiny and new
what will it take to get you out of my system?
i want to come up from these muddy waters
what will make it safe to say,
"i will be able to bloom"
